Your pills are costing you $500 in perpetuity now, or just until some arbitrary timepoint until the coverage kicks in?

The first prescription will cost $500, then I have a discount card from the pill company for about 8 more prescriptions at a discounted price, then the cost goes up again with my insurance paying a small portion. My psychiatrist said I could eventually go off of the medicine, so it's not a lifelong cost but right now it is going to cost me out the ass to get better.

Uh, wow, your insurance sounds like it sucks. Within the constraints of what you're dealing with, though, paying the upfront cost seems pretty worth it to me.

Yeah, I'm going to have to. I have some samples left that will last me a month and then next month I'll have to get it filled. I already messaged code3 a bunch of stuff last night during my episode; I think he can realize now when I'm having one, but he isn't talking to me today so I dunno.

Buy those meds on the streets for the low low

Bipolar medication is not something to take only when you feel like it. It MUST be taken exactly as prescribed, continuously, in order for it to be effective.

It seems highly unlikely that your prescribing doctor would have neglected to stress this with you. Bipolar is notoriously hard to manage, and medication noncompliance is a major factor in that.

Ensuring you have your meds should probably be your highest priority behind shelter and food.

Yes, I need some more weed to straighten me out. I wish I knew how and where to buy it.

Ok, thanks. I'm not going to skip again. It's hard not to get irrational once you start feeling good. I was feeling good, almost out of meds, and my prescription was expensive, so I thought I could ration it. I was wrong.

Yeah, this is common (feel better so stop the meds). You are part of good company, I didn't post that to try to make you feel bad. Unfortunately with bipolar, it's just incredibly necessary not to fall into that trap.

Try talking to your doctor about the price, or email the company that holds the patent. Some now have programs to try to provide some relief on the price.

Picking up trees is easy. Also on a slim chance see what goodrx.com lists for your med price

Mixing weed and your psych meds is a horrible idea, as is smoking weed to try to manage bipolar disorder.

One of the side effects of this medicine is that it makes me fumble over my words really bad. Like my brain is thinking one thing and there is a disconnect with my speech and I litterally say sentences backwards or the end of the sentence first. Anyway, I was just in a meeting where I was trying to convince a higher up manager that reliability on the equipment is where we will see the most savings and we should look at adding some vibration analysis and other things. I came off sounding like a complete ****** and kept having to say "oh no, that came out wrong, I mean this, no that's wrong too"
I was trying to seem like I was engaged with the company and cost savings since my boss just got on to me last week, and I came off like a blubbering idiot.

Thanks for posting that article it was quite interesting.

This is so true. I know someone with bipolar who makes this mistake with regularity, feels good so comes off his medication and then gets really bad again.

Agreed.

Exercise today:
10 min walk @3.2, 5°

Db incline bench:
3x15x25s

Db rows:
3x12x30s

Kettle bell swing/squats:
3x12x10

I also tried about 10s of the dance class, realized I couldn't do it, and snuck out the back.

I'm feeling just meh today. Work was really busy. I've now inserted myself in a few different things and have gained some responsibilities as a result, so I'm kinda tired ATM.
I'm going to try to get a 30 min nap in when I get home if I can get my daughter to stay in the living room and watch TV without catching the house on fire, then we can go for a walk around the neighborhood.

Today's log:


I don't have anything prepped for tomorrow, so I'm planning on an apple+banana for breakfast, subway sandwhich for lunch, and I dunno about dinner.

My daughter fell asleep as soon as we got home, so I've just been lying in bed since 6:00 and will only get up to shower.

How is it that not even a full day after saying "no more fast food" you visit not one but two fast food establishments?

Mlylt,

Obviously getting back on your meds is paramount but seriously trying and improving your diet so it's more nutrient dense could possibly help with your depression and mental illness.
I posted this on your prop bet thread ages ago but possibly you didn't pay any attention thinking I was trying to troll you or whatever, but take a look at it when you can. There are plenty of studies which show how diet can be very effective, as can exercise, on mental illness especially depression. The Mediterranean diet is often mentioned as being a good one to follow but really just commonsense and eating lean protein with vegetables/salad would be of benefit. I hope you start feeling better soon.

In other words, an unmitigated disaster that could be averted right now with a quick trip to Wal-Mart or the dollar store.

My kid fell asleep when we got home and is still asleep. No way am I waking her up now to go to Walmart. I could run by Walmart during lunch tomorrow and pick up some frozen lean cuisines. I have fruit and oatmeal for breakfast.

Just saying there should be ample opportunities to plan for dinner between now and dinner. And I'm not a huge fan of pre-planned Subway if you're trying to eat less than 1400 calories tomorrow. Isn't the bread alone like 400?

Maybe I could just get a lean cuisine for lunch, and I have a California roll I can eat for dinner.

Yay muscles!!!! I can actually see calf muscles now, and my shoulders look more defined and I have lost fat off of my back.

MLYLT,

something i found helpful for people who "start" after a bad meal or day or whatever, is for every time you sit down at a table is to ask yourself "is this what a super fit healthy person would be eating?"

it internalizes the concept of not every meal by itself counts, but at the same time every calorie actually does. so have your friday cheeseburger but make up for it w egg white omelettes the next day etc. like ruining 1 day doesnt mean you ruined the entire week. longterm stuff here.

Thanks YMMV. I'll do this.