My aspi self never knows what is the right answer to such questions. So I will try this: very busy, pretty productive and not having much time for bad habits like hanging in front of my PC or ruminating.
Originally Posted by Malucci
60 min elliptical. Really proud of my fat dumb self for getting out to do this today.
You are doing good.
But please..... Don't call yourself fat, dumb and other names. It makes me cringe and wanting to cry.
And look at this objectively: you are about 190 lbs right now. For a guy it is really not sooooo fat. It can be a lot worse. And you are actually working out. I think it is a lot better to be a little bit fat and work out regularly than to be really thin and never move your butt.
Yeah, but it's not a question of outer appearance. Inside I'm dark black puddle scum. 3438 calories proves that.
It is true that the exterior has nothing to do with it. Neither do calories. I believe that calling yourself names as well as binge eating is the expression of the same issue: both is abusing yourself. At least it is true for me. Clearly I am projecting my experience and perception on your personality. May be it is completely different for you.