Mostly beer?

Lots of that...late night pizza party too

Care to tell more? Pizza party on your own or with a company? Which pizza? Self-made or ordered?

Ordered and with company, basically a local place's meat lovers pizza.

4489 cal? Maybe?

Company is cool!

It's your birthday weekend. I think the emphasis should be neither on overeating no on somehow calorie saving, but on it be something special, something you can remember and it is somehow different than other weekends.

And for the logged calories you are doing pretty good with weight.

Well luckily there is a good chunk of month left after this to dial it back on the unabashed piggery. But I'm definitely enjoying myself and it's been a great weekend in a beautiful locale

5200 cal, total guess probably/hopefully off by some

Happy birthday Malucci!

Awwww, thanks lap. Very flowery

Happy birthday!!!

How are you gonna show me that and then say I can't eat it?!?!?!?

4440 cal. Tomorrow we go back under.

1890 cal

3825 cal

Another birthday already?

What I wonder about here: Does it help just to write down the numbers? Does it change something for you? How does it make you feel?

Happy belated birthday, Malucci! Let you become an awesome human again soon! (You were born a human, you do have free will, and you can revert the changes that have made you less human.)

This goodness you can actually eat if you do so in moderation (splitting the round in half to be eaten at two different times):



And this one (dipped into yogurt without sweeteners):

https://image.ibb.co/dgDHsa/veg_cutlets.jpg

And don't dismiss them until you actually taste them.

I'll come back soon with my bootcamp approach to turning a pig into a human, gotto go now to buy those cutlets. For now, I'd like to read your conjectures about what childhood / youth issues have made you treat food as a psychological remedy.

I haven't read the log besides the first post so the only thing I know for now is that your parents were a bad example for you. Well, indeed, not everyone deserves to be a parent. But the good news is that, at 35, you can take your life into your own hands and correct the shortcomings that the bad upbringing has given you. And don't forget that you're the one who chooses whether to spend most of the time hanging out with toxic lazy bones or to make friends with positive healthy people (myself not included quite yet but I think I'm progressing).

Best of luck!

I feel way better about it when I'm writing down good numbers than bad, but it's just me keeping myself accountable, and I like having an easy to access record of everything.

Do you keep record during the day of how many kcal you've eaten so far? When you realize that you're already above maintenance for the day, what stops you from wrapping your bloodbath up and calling it a day instead of ordering another portion?

Let's consider a post that you made 2 months ago.

What a self-fulfilling prophecy it was. Why did you believe that the ugliness was inevitable? Didn't you have any way of preventing the trouble? Didn't you have an excuse not to go to any place that triggers your junk food addiction?

Oops, I've just discovered that your height/weight are very close to mine so I'm officially a FPOS too and will be soon taking lessons from you.

From quick reading, it appears to me that your main issue is drinking too much booze. Hold yourself accountable for that (maybe even log that), and you'll start having much fewer uncontrollable binge days per month.

60 min elliptical

5326 cal

Oh boy, I physically can't afford to consume that many calories within my $200 monthly food budget. When going to the grocery, I worry rather about spending too much money than about buying too many calories. And obviously I can only afford to eat at home, which results in better calorie control as a side effect.

First world problems are quite different from mine

Try going out with a debit card with little money on it as the only means of payment, or with a small amount of cash only, so that you have to go home and thus to stop the binge when you're out of cash.

At home, keep the food in a form that requires long cooking (e.g. dry grains), and as little food ready for consumption as possible. Chances are that, by the time when the meal gets boiled, your hunger will have passed away, especially if you take some appetite suppressor or eat low-energy, low glycemic index, highly satiating food (leafy greens, apples, curd, etc.) at the start of the cooking.

I log my booze. Had over 1000 calories of booze yesterday.