Weighed in at 136.4 lbs. Last night I began my new master plan to get my gainz back. I ordered 12 lbs of salmon, mackerel and sardines from Vital Choice. Then I saw Vitacost was having a buy one get one half off sale so I got 10 lbs of their generic whey powder for like $70, and a box of Quest bars. I've never had a Quest bar but the ingredient list looked decent and I need more lazy ways to get calories. Tonight I'll order a couple boxes of Epic bars and a ****ton of plantain ships and dried fruit. Then tomorrow I hit Whole Foods for a couple whole chickens and a few lbs of catfish, a few lbs of rice, few gallons of ice cream, and whatever else.

Back on the wagon today, I didn't sleep well and I had no energy so my workout was fueled by nothing but repressed rage lol.

db squats 46x8x4
db deadlift 46x8x4
chinup 4x4
1-leg calf raise 46x16x4
1-leg kickback 28x15x4

You like peanut butter? If I was ever in need of gaining weight Im pretty sure id just pound jars of that on the reg

I'm very allergic to peanuts

Aww sheet, my bad

lmao

I've also struggled with severe social anxiety most of my life so i can relate to most of what you're saying. Question - does your voice ever crack when speaking while nervous. I've found my voice shaking whenever I'm nervous in social interactions and I hate myself for it. I think I hate the sound of my voice too

My voice doesn't crack, but sometimes when I'm talking while nervous my chest gets so tight that I literally can't talk and I start whispering. I'll randomly whisper 3-4 words in a row and then have to repeat them because obv no one could hear what I was saying. It happens most often when I'm talking on the phone.

I also hate the sound of my voice. I sound like a 9 year old that just got kicked in the stomach.

4/2/16

chinup 4x3
lying leg raise 20x4
knee hugs 18x3
wood chopper 20x3

The wood chopper is a new one for me, I did it with resistance bands hooked on a doorknob. Felt like it hit the obliques really well.


4/3/16

side crunch 28x11x4
1-arm bentover row 28x15x4
lat pulldown 15x4
lat pushdown 10x4
tricep pushdown 10x4
1-leg db deadlift 28x12x4
hammer curl 28x3x4
bentover row 56x12x4

Today was kind of a do-whatever-I feel-like day. All the pulldown/pushdown stuff is with resistance bands. I like the tricep pushdown a lot more than the overhead tricep extension cuz it was hurting my elbows.

Ate a lot of fish, plantain chips, and ice cream.

4/4/16

pushup 15x5
chinup 4x5
lateral raise 13x15x5
shrugs 43x18x2
db ohp 23x14x2

Tried to work on the pistols today. I'm convinced lack of flexibility is just as much of a problem for me as lack of strength. Need to stretch and lay on lacrosse balls more.

Do you have any friends you do anything social with? And what do you do for work?

I'm generally a socially ******ed assburger person. I have 3 friends, all women. 2 of them I occasionally have lunch with. 1 of them said she wanted to go running with me when it gets warmer, so that's a motivation for me to improve my cardio fitness.

I'm a baker/pastry cook/chef whatever. Currently unemployed.

I am convinced that pistols are fictional. I know I have seen people do them in videos and pictures and stuff but I call trick photography or flat out CGI or something.

I can do all of these except hold the bottom position. I can't hold at the bottom without totally rounding my back, and then I can only hold it for 10-15 seconds before I lose my balance and start rolling back.

You are much closer to being able to complete a pistol squat than I am. I can't come close to holding the bottom of one. Nice instructor.

Coincidentally, Zuzka just made another pistol video yesterday with some more training ideas:

4/6/16

db squat 46x10x4
db dl 46x10x4
1-leg calf raise 46x18x4
1-leg kickback 33x16x4
1-leg bridge 28x15x2

4/7/16

lying leg raise 22x4
side crunch 33x12x4
knee hugs 25x4
ab roll 12x3
wood chopper 20x1

4/8/16

1-arm bentover row 33x15x4
lat pushdown 13x4
1-leg db deadlift 33x12x4
bentover db row 56x15x4
lat pulldown 13x4

Weighed in at 138.8 lbs today.

I applied for a job at a Brazilian restaurant, despite having no idea what Brazilian food is.

Like a churrascaria? You'd get to carry skewers of meat around all day and carve it off for customers. Assuming you could scam the leftovers, send like a pretty awesome job.

Just checked my email and they responded saying my resume looks great, they want me to stage next week.

I''m a pastry guy so no slaving over a grill or carving meat for me . I looked up their menu online, seems like I'd be making a lot of dulce de leche, caramelized bananas, various coconut things. It sounded like yummy stuff imo.

4/9/16

Ahnold press 18x15x2
db front raise 13x12x4
pushup 15x5
chinup 5x5
lateral raise 13x15x4
hammer curl 23x10x1

Today is rest day.

zuzkaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I've dealt with anxiety and depression in the past. What helped the most was removing things from my life that caused anguish, and also finding a purpose in life. It's almost like a disease. You can't let it take over. You have to fight it.

The job interview/stage went well. The people all seemed pretty chill. I didn't **** anything up or have a panic attack, so that was a small victory in itself even if I don't get the job.

Haven't done any lifting for 4 days. I think that's the main reason my anxiety was so low today. I've been chilling, just walking a little each day, not eating sugar, and making sure I sleep well.

Good luck for the job mate.

4/14/16

I think I got hella allergies, my head felt like it was in a vise and I was sneezing and blowing my nose nonstop. No energy for lifting.

Wieghed 137.6 lbs.

4/15/16

Still had runny nose but I was better and had more energy.

I just realized that calf raises are supposed to be done with your toes elevated a little to get the full ROM, so I started doing that today.

The weather in Chicago is getting good, finally. The plan is to start making more of an effort to improve cardio fitness. I'll try to go outside and run a little tomorrow.

db squat 46x12x5
1-leg calf raise 56x15x4
1-leg kickback 33x17x5
db deadlift 46x12x5
chinup 5x5
pushup 15x2

That's great, even if this one doesn't work out sounds like you'll do well in the future.
GL!

Thx bros

4/16/16

lying leg raise 24x4
side crunch 33x16x2
knee hugs 25x2
ab rolls 12x2
wood chopper 20x1

I can definitely feel my abs have gained some mass, it's probably the area I've made the most gains in, although it's hard to see because I have some fat over them, and I'm pale AF. Gotta admit I'm curious how I'd look if I cut some weight and got a fake tan, but lol @ a guy who's been lifting for 5 months cutting.

I'm getting a decent idea of which areas require more/less work for me. I think I need to work the chest and shoulders more and if I could do something less it would be abs. Part of the problem is that I have a fat Irish head which looks out of proportion to my skinnyass shoulders. If I keep gaining mass around my stomach, that'll just add to the A-taper imo.