I'm trying to piece together the chain of events and possible causes of a hypomanic episode. It began around july of 2017, then gradually eroded and turned into the severe depressive episode which led to my hospitalization in january this year.
The hypomanic symptoms included constantly feeling unusually energized, lack of sleep, hypersexuality, and obsessive repetetive sexual thoughts.
The most significant consequence of the hypomania was destroying a solid friendship with a woman I'd known for about 4 years. This happened through having a 3-day bizarro text exchange which involved me being super horny and needy and her jerking off in the bathroom of the daycare center where she worked (she said she was thinking about me going down on her and had to cum). Then she eventually ghosted me, understandably, after she'd had enough of my manic aggro neediness.
Not long after that I purchased used panties from 4 different women on Reddit. I have absolutely no explanation for this, other than that it seemed like a good idea at the time. It's not a fetish I've ever been into, before or since. I made the purchases by sending amazon gift cards from my real account, so I'll have those in my purchase history until the end of time. So that's just great.
I recently read the book
Anatomy Of An Epidemic which should be required reading for anyone and everyone who is or has ever taken psychiatric prescription drugs. I learned that SSRIs are known to cause manic episodes within 2 years of withdrawal. According to my logs, I stopped taking Lexapro 6 months before the hypomanic episode began. I had never experienced anything resembling a manic episode before then.
The investigation is ongoing.
Last edited by krunic; 10-30-2019 at 04:10 AM.