I saw your comment and I'm def working on it today. More Cals and more protein too. I'm about to grill some fish.

Ha! Hopefully your glances are subtle.

These guys are really cool, no one was doing anything untoward. It's just the idea of being looked at by male coworkers that prevented them from partaking. Oh well, it's certainly not mandatory. We have 35 employees in the office and 12 showed up for yoga. That's pretty good considering some were at meetings or onsite or whatev.

Didace, how old are you? Be honest!

Old enough to know what to do. Too old to try.

Too old to try? So you're in your 90s?

Saturday July 1

I listened to Cookie and made sure I ate enough calories today. 1226 kcals to be exact! Plus my protein intake was much better than it had been cuz I went grocery shopping! Eggs w breakfast, lean burger on a plate w edamame and salad for lunch and homemade grilled salmon, grilled veggies and salad for dinner.

I went to the gym early this morning w the intention of getting a swim in before my day got crazy. Got to the gym and realized I didn't pack a towel in my bag.

Here's what I did instead:

🏼*♀️ bike 30 min
Foam rolling
Glute bridges, 4 sets of 12
👯*♂️Yoga stretches
Suspended leg raises 2x8, 6
Bicep curls 3x8x20 each
Face pulls 2x10x65 12x65
Suitcase carry 2x25lbs
⬆️Push-ups from bench 18-22" from ground 5x10
Hip abduction 3x20x100 !
Hip adduction 4x22x100!
Hammer curl thingy 4x8x50
🏻*♀️seated row 3x10x60

Then went grocery shopping, then hospital. Alf was asleep the whole time but breathing sounded very fluidy. They upped the med that breaks up the fluid in his lungs but I didn't hear any improvement.

Went home, cooked dinner, thought about going to a friend's 4th of July shin dig but instead stayed home and watched America's Got Talent. I may have eaten some M&Ms during the show. I HAD to. Cookie SAID to up my calories!

It's Monday 7/3/17 and I just got out of work. I am skipping the hosp visit today as I've gone every day for the past week or so. Unfortunately, it's like a death watch now. He's no longer conscious, hasn't eaten or drank in well over a week and there's been no output (pee or poop). He's deteriorating obv but not in pain. So back to my point of skipping hosp visit.

I'm going to hit the gym hard, then I'm going to the movies! I have probably seen a movie in the movie theater 1-2 times in the past few years...def not often.

While in work I did a little recap of my break, which has been the past 9 days thus far.

I made it to the gym 5 times in those 9 days. Not bad considering everything but I'd been going 5-6 days out of 7.

Food: I'm still logging my food. My low cal days are just abysmal protein-wise. Some days had 40g protein or a little less.

I upped the kcals this past weekend, which was a combination of mindfully increasing protein and eating shiat I don't normally eat. So yesterday was 1366 cals consisting of good protein and I had a croissant. Omfg I love croissants! Plain, no butter, no jelly and omg good.

Not eating another one till autumn tho. It just leads to desire for MOAR.

Case in point: today's lunch. We bought pizza for all the schmucks, erm professionals, that came into work on July 3. Pizzeria Regina.

Last time I had pizza was early Feb while on vacay so not for a while and yes I love pizza.

So I'm justifying it in my brain in a variety of ways "we're on a break!" to quote Ross Geller.

So I had one slice and I chose the smallest. As soon as I finished it my brain told me to have another. Nothing wrong w 2 slices. Ha! Yes there ****ing is. I stopped at one.

Filling lunch? No. satisfying lunch? FACK no. Got my protein in? Again no. Bad choice even tho it's well within my kcal budget.

See below for details.



Next topics to write about are guns and body image; two entirely separate topics lol but I'm having trouble w both so maybe you guys can help with my gun issues anyway. Fun stuff.

I think you are doing extremely well at a really difficult time
One piece of pizza for lunch sounds like torture, I've done it a few times and it just makes you want more and you're hungry again in no time Good job stopping at 1 though. Showing lots of WIM once again!

Ty Rexx

Yes pizza wasn't fun after I finished my slice.

Making the best of what's going on, showing some restraint at a time when it's tough, that's WIM. You're good.

I'd be happy to help with your gun issues. I can tell you what I prefer and what I think you should buy

When is your next appointment with Coach?

I'd be happy to help with your body image issues. I can tell you what I prefer and what I think you should buy.

Seems like we've got your issues solved.

Omfg I don't want to buy a gun! But be objective.

So how was the first date with Kevin?

Well looks like break is coming to a close. Alf died last night. I'm glad the suffering part of his life is over.

So next week at the latest. I didn't want to start until I could focus all my effort to it.

I dunno how accurate body fat % testing actually is, but I'm having it tested on July 11th at a medical facility. So I want to get my 2 months with trainer started around that time so I can test again to gauge progress.

That's the plan anyway. 2 months training, seeing him 1x per week plus he writes me a program for my days without him. For 1k. I'm in. I was squatting at the gym last night trying to remember the hundred different little things I should be doing for a good stance. I need it drilled into my head a few more times.

I can be objective.

The actual accuracy of the number that you receive for bf% is pretty irrelevant, it's just a metric we use to measure progress. My bf% varies wildly depending on the method used, so it's just a matter of choosing a method and replicating your tests under consistent conditions.

^ with that in mind, maybe it's a better idea to buy a scale that measures bodyfat. While those are inaccurate it can give you an indication of progress like g4s said and you don't have to go to all the trouble/expenses of getting tested at a hospital.

RIP Alf.

Hugs Josie. What is your sister's name?

Her name is Carmela. Ty Lapka

Gun Issue has many layers. I'm going to lay them out here in no particular order.

I don't particularly like guns nor do I want them around me. I just feel that if having a gun in your house increases the likelihood of an accident by even a minuscule amount, it's not worth it.

My son is interested in guns.

I got home from hospital one night last week and my son told me that Auntie was giving him Alf's guns. Alf wanted him to have them.

2 old guns; a shot gun and a hunting rifle that have been hanging on a wall in Alf's basement for a decade.

Then he tells me he needs to take a safety course that costs $120 and get a license that costs $100.

I know he's never hunt an animal so I ask what he'd do with them.

I dunno, target shoot, show my friends, nothing just have them.

I told him I didn't want guns in my house and if I did gave them, they'd be locked up in some sort of case so that's another expense.

Then I told him I just didn't want guns in my house.

He said he'd pay for the lesson himself and he was taking it the next morning.

No.

I made him slow down at least.

Then he brought up that I used to own guns. Something I'm really not proud of. Another layer. I owned a lot more guns, it was purely to make a profit. Something I'd never do today. (Long story, that I've told son.) so he thinks this makes me unreasonable and a hypocrite.

I think the guns are a piece of crap and I know he'll be shooting them. He really wants to target shoot but I think these guns are not good for that.

What do you guys think? Am I being unreasonable? It's not the money associated with it but I could use that in my defense. And it's not like he's working this summer. It seems like a waste of money to me cuz he doesn't want to hunt.

Am I wrong?

I was assuming you wanted bigger arms.

I can save your son the cost of safety course; always treat a gun like it's loaded and always keep it loaded because it ain't no use without bullets.

Yes you obviously are being hypocritical but you're allowed to be because it's your house.

Your house, your rules.

But...

Shooting is a really enjoyable activity for lots of people, not even mentioning the defensive aspect of weapons. And I honestly think that a general knowledge of weapons is a good thing for anyone.

Your concern about him shooting POS guns is well founded though, take 'em to a shop and have them checked out if that's really a concern. Maybe you can even buy some time by telling him those guns aren't going to be useful/good for what he wants to do and maybe he should save up his money to buy something more in line with what he needs (maybe plinking with a .22 or something).

I'm not a hunter, never will be. But I have been involved in shooting sports and competing and it's a lot of fun.

I have...several...guns around the house. They are accessible and always loaded. My kids are knowledgeable about them, on purpose.

What about taking an interest and making it something you guys can do together? Or is your aversion to weapons that strong?

lol

No it's not an aversion at all, but no real interest.

Good idea about getting guns checked out to see if they're sound.

Yeah maybe if he has to get the license to own them he should get something he could actually use for target shooting.