I can't tell what level we're on anymore.

Er, no, I sent you the name of a general practitioner. But he likely knows someone who knows a good neurologist

It's not her fault, her janky phone auto corrects when she starts typing "gram" into "Grammer" every time, duh. Who knows why

Baaaaah....I haven't logged calories in 3 days.
Today I had a sausage egg and cheese biscuit, bacon egg and cheese biscuit, 2 dbl cheeseburgers, med fries

I can't even remember what I ate yesterday....I don't think I ate at work at all, I put my lunch in the microwave and forgot about it.

Goddamn all this paper work for buying a house. I have submitted my bank statements 4 times. Four mother****ing times!!!! And the girl is asking for them again. I first sent as xps files, she asked me to convert them to PDF. I told her how to just open them in xps and she responded, "I can't do that, you have to convert and resend"
I did that and added, "jeeze...I really need to get into the business of charging $4k for documentation fees and making the clients do all the work!" .....I know, bitchy, but I have resubmitted so many document to this girl multiple times. After I sent them, she asked for them again, sent again, and she just sent an email asking for them again along with a long list of other things I have already submitted.
In this list she asked for my American Electric Power loan details,....baaaaah, I had to explain that is my electric bill.

My sister just sent me a "happy bday" text with a pic of the cake and candles she had on her bday...wtf
My bday is Saturday, not today

You're working on one of the biggest financial transactions you will have in your life and you choose to piss off the person that can control if your documents are in order? Have you applied at any other mortgage companies?

I have applied with two.
None of the problems with documents with the second one....just simply uploaded the docs in mass and I was done.....second company also offered a $7k lender credit and then retracted it and revised the loan estimate going into underwriting, so they are out.

Today I very had a couple of sushi rolls, chocolate cake, lemon cake bites, and I'm going to eat a steak.

Reset tomorrow.

Happy Birthday!

thanks!

Happy belated birthday!

Thanks Holliday.

Had some lemon cake lean cusines TV dinners, and 4 slices of pizza today.
The real reset will be tomorrow and I can skip breakfast again for the week.

Finally went back to the neurologist again yesterday. I left feeling confused with no answers. She gave me some meds for the numbness, I'm going to have a spinal tap, I'm having some blood panels retested, and I'm scheduled to go back in 3 months

She talked a lot about how my blood sugar is really low and the 3-month test was really low. Says I need to make sure to eat and asked if I was fasting. I told her that I'm just skipping breakfast, her reply was that was fine but I need to make sure to eat.... confused. She also told me to eat when I start to feel anxious.

She also thinks that my ammonia levels are a lab mistake because I'm not acting like a person would with such high levels and my liver was functioning fine.
I dunno, I have some pretty bad reactions to alcohol. Tonight I had margarita, it got me completely drunk, and the veins in my neck were stinging. I also got really sick and did some weird things the last time I had margaritas.

I'm not gonna lie, I haven't been counting cals and I have been emotional eating all week. I haven't been getting much sex and that's really affecting my mood, I really start feeling depressed when I don't get sex, and I want to eat because I'm depressed. My head is still spinning with everything going on.....and my boss is doing some weird **** that I won't talk about here. My bday was also this past weekend and I didn't do anything. Once a year my bf takes me to a show or something, I really look forward to this one night out a year and really really needed something fun this year...he didn't plan anything and I was really bummed out.

I should be moving and closing on my house next week.
I am being uncontrollably bitchy with this mortgage company in response to all this documentation. The damn processor girl asked for the same bank statements I've sent before. There were a lot of issues where they have a firewall that flags everything as zip files via email and if you upload it to their website the files are all corrupted. After several emails today, I finally responded:
"For the love of God!!! Tell your IT and processing groups to get their **** together!"

Thanks Cit.

The only alcohol that doesn't affect me muh is wine, but yeah, no more.

Sounds like a bunch of downers, M. Hang in there. The way you're feeling right now, is that like a low episode? I think I'm in a pretty similar mood today. Sucks.

Are you able to get in any exercise for stress relief?

lol @ emailing zip files and then being really bitchy to the lady about it when they aren't accepted

Stop drinking
Break up with the bf
Walk more
Eat less
Get ****ed

...

And stop sending zip files.

I did not send zip files!!!!!

Sorry your feeling low Holiday. I have actually been getting a lot of walking in.

The last time I lifted weights during lunch my hands were shaking so bad for hours that I couldn't hold a spoon to eat or a pin, then my should hurt for a couple of weeks straight.

How about power walking? Treadmill 3 mph or so, incline 2 or so, bang out half an hour with a decent heartrate. Much better for consistency than street walking.

BTW, totally obvious from your post that you didn't send zip files, though the bf does sound hideous.

I very much support stopping drinking. Have been dry myself for a year, clearly one of my better decisions ever. It opens up things, I'm here at H&F for example...

Are you implying that you have a bf other than Code with an established track record of going out once a year?

I woke up in the middle of the night vomiting....no more drinking.

The thing with the bf isn't that bad, he did all my laundry and does my house cleaning for me most of time. I guess it's not a bad trade off for not going out.