Oh, no problem. Blurred for privacy.
Thai woman broke up because she very correctly identified that with our respective locations and schedules, every time we met it would take away from time with her son. He was briefly considering quitting BBall and going to a "normal" school and then transferring to China and attending wherever I work, but later decided to stick with Bball. That would mean she and he wouldn't relocate here until he's 18. Neither of us were willing to do 4 years of long distance. No h8. I think her son and her both made the right choices. I'd feel ****ing awful if the kid went to a normal school then regretted not pursuing his dream of an athletic career. The probability of him succeeding is probably very low, but that doesn't mean he shouldn't try and strike when the iron is hot to find out. Won't post her pics, sorry.
If these ***** Thai schools didn't discriminate against Americans who teach British curriculum so much and I had been successful in finding a job there, things may have turned out very differently. I've also been hearing from my colleagues here that BRitish schools might pay much less than I thought in Thailand, as many of them worked there. 120k baht/mo is really just not enough if I were a 37 year old man. Chinese retirement is actually very good and I've been contributing to it for 9 years already. If I found something over 150k baht/mo I'd consider it, but I think these jobs are rare/don't exist/inaccessible for people who don't have direct uk experience.
So anyway, talked with another foreigner in CHina BB friend and decided I will continue being self coached in offseason but I need to hire a coach for precontest. $1200 for 16 weeks of Chris Tuttle coaching is very much worth it. It's not like I can't write my own diet, training, steps, and cardio, but more just that the last few weeks bodybuilders get so brain fogged and scatterbrained and make some irrational and strange decisions. Like my 2500g carb days toward the end of last diet phase. THat was dumb, I should have been doing 2x/wk of 1000 instead. Or doing over 20k steps, that's just silly. There's huge diminishing returns on steps past 15k or so. Max maybe 17k. It's probably best to not even try to have a non-lifting girlfriend when you are training for a pro card. Figuring out when to refeed, refeeding by how much, when to drop down calories, when to increase or decrease steps/cardio, when to decrease training intensity, and manipulating water/sodium/carbohydrates in the days immediately before the show are difficult decisions that you can make easily when you are well fed and thinking rationally or doing it for someone else, but when you're starving and doing it for yourself and it's something really important to you, it's easy to mess up and go too far toward one extreme. Like that keto disaster I did 2 years ago where I was consuming way too few calories and lost muscle and looked worse as the scale went down.