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Originally Posted by UltimateGrinder33
I think i might call it quits...i think I've tried everything i can but i keep loosing my BR. When i play good i quit early but when I'm playing terrible i stay all night until I'm broke WTF is wrong with me. I'm old enough to know better. I'm never taking drugs again in my life!!! Even coffee gets me tilted. My job won't pay me my roll is gone what else do i have to loose!! Life is really difficult rn. My emotions are everywhere there is nothing out there that can save me... So much for winning the wsop main event 3 times. I think I'm the only moron to think of this
Since this one is pretty big to address / unpack, I will answer 1 aspect of it. You should not have your play effect your emotional state outside of the game, and the fact that it is throwing you into emotional disarray away from the tables and at the tables shows that there is some lack of balance in life / play, and that you have a perception problem about the game. Getting frustrated over bad beats, cold cards, and your own snowballing mistakes in bad sessions away from the table is counter-productive and stokes the fire of accumulated tilt : IOW, you are focused on entirely the wrong things when you are playing / after and before. You should not be concerned with winning money when you play, if you do, it will cause you to chase losses with money you have no business wagering, at stakes you are not a favorite in even when you are playing your best game. Set realistic goals about what you want to accomplish with your play, and how you want to accomplish it. A goal of "I want to break even for this session, whatever it takes, I'm in so deep" is not a productive goal. A better goal would be "I want to play my best throughout this session, and wherever variance falls, I will still try to play my best and make good decisions". Do warm up and cool downs and evaluate your goals for a session before, and honestly analyze how you played after a session while the play is still fresh in your mind, and if you did make a large mistake with your emotions involved, try to get at why, as opposed to just randomly playing back the event in your mind countless times after playing while wallowing in self pity.
general suggestions:
1: read Jared Tendler's mental game of poker
2: probably lower volume and try to work out some of your leaks while maintaining composure. That does not mean locking up a win, you must learn to overcome this tendency. Set a goal for how long you want to play / how many hands you want to play, and pull the plug if you start to tilt, or play longer if you are feeling good. Increase your volume as you feel more competent controlling your emotions. When you have position on a whale 300bb deep, THIS is one of the juiciest situations in poker, and you have to have the patience and discipline to capitalize on these situations.
3: never risk your bankroll in a single session. I am a huge bankroll nit, but that means that I can put myself at risk in any given hand if the situation warrants it, and not care about the result. I know myself, so I know that I benefit from being deeply rolled at this moment. Know yourself, it sounds like you are not going into playing with a clear plan / idea of how much risk you are willing to take on. I think you would probably benefit from being very deeply rolled so that the decisions weigh on you less. Also, do not be afraid to move down, or if you are playing poorly and tilting, to leave the tables. That does not mean leaving the second something negative happens in a session, but realizing when you've crossed your own "threshold of pain" or whatever you want to call it, and having the discipline to leave for the day or a few hours after recognizing your play will likely nosedive if you continue playing.
Last edited by amazin lazer; 03-24-2019 at 12:23 PM.
