i have the same issues
had a few good talks with my dad that really helped. if n e one wants to hear things he said pm me and i will kinda guide u through it. made me a little more reassured regarding the rest of my life.
in poker news... i took my first shot at 100nl and it was a weird session. much more aggro for sure. i am gonna have to nit up my preflop **** a tad but that shouldnt b an issue. the main thing was 35% w$wsd
yet up 1.5 buy ins
. i think i played dece. made a couple spewy calls at the begining but both were in smaller pots. villian showed me a set 4 times in the session !$##!$# but i ended up going 2 for 4 in coinflips for a net profit of .6 buy ins so that kinda kept my head above water.
i am semi short rolled so i hope i dont run like aids in the first 5k hands or so. i wanna stay here as i feel like i can actually "play some poker" and do things i think about at 50nl but dont exactly work/apply due to people sucking and not doing n e thing correctly