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Originally Posted by Barry Champlain
I had more than one 300+ BI downswings when I played MTT's full time. I'm a good player who has had coaching from top tier players and the top mindset guys.
Once I got my mindset and my game where I wanted it to be I went from being "numb" to the variance (in a good way I think - Just brushed whatever beats I took off and kept regging) to totally bewildered by individual hand results on the daily where I'd get it in as a 80%+ fav and lose hand after hand day after day week after week. I was not mad, nor was I tilted...Just confused...could I really run this poorly ? Was I not as good as I thought? Was I bad. Doubt it.
Eventually it got to the point where I'd just look at the ceiling and ask god / whomever controls the matrix "Why?" Not manically or raging with tilt...Again...Sort of confused...Confused + disappointed + over it'ness...And when you talk to your ceiling even if it's' "calmly" you know your mind is just not where it should be any longer.
Shortly after I just threw in the towel as a reg / full time mtt grinder. It just felt totally pointless and like a massive waste of time - Like all I was doing everyday was clicking the right buttons - watching results in real time - rinse and repeat with no $ coming in pretty much ever and always being in MU when backed. I was just over it...Didn't want to give up cause It's not my style but not giving up felt like a much bigger leak.
I don't mean to be whining ITT if it comes off that way even tho I probably am a bit but....Idk...Mtt's are basically just lotto tickets you have a bit of control over...And LOL @ expecting to make $ each year playing ON Stars f or so many reasons. I''m actually a 15-20% ish ROI winner on the other sites I played on but never turned a profit on stars even after thousands of games played (Chuck Bass - IFU)
So I have a question...Why do you guys even bother? I'm not even asking with a bitter tone...I just find it very hard to believe anyone is making $ grinding it out in 1000+ fields or even at all really unless you are running (probably wayyyyyy) above EV.
Why do you guys even bother at this point in time?
p.s - The sick thing is I still contemplate giving it another go cuz I'm having a very hard time accepting my results overall...Which I guess answers the question for some.
Any results/stats can be filtered or manipulated to allow the player to believe that he is a winning player and will win if he gets the appropriate amount of luck . Like you said you are a 15-20% winner on other sites but overall loser on stars . Many players will simply choose to believe that their true winrate is 15-20% and they are merely running badly on stars or that the field sizes are too big etc They don't consider the possibility that actually they are 5-10% roi players who are running a spectrum from below EV to above EV on each of the sites they play . People are optimistic when it comes to evaluating how much they should be winning at poker
Not getting at you but this is why people "bother" Because 1) they are in denial/delusional and 2) there is a lot of uncertainty about their true skill level and what that means in terms of expected earnings
and 3) it's gambling and when gambling you hope to win more than you should..
Of course there are a lot of genuine winning players also but the "why bother" probably doesn't apply to them