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Originally Posted by pujolsnet
the thing about poker is that everyone encounters inevitable failure, be it one lost pot or a 30 buy-in downswing, and those bits of failure set me off. this is coupled with the fact that i think about money 24/7.
i could have enough money for a 100nl roll, but its not for me right now. i dont think any of you truly understand how violent i get when i play. i mean they made me go to the hospital once when i obliterated my room and everything in it. there are worse things ive done but im not going to share them.
my plan is to go back to selling sportscards online. i can generate a decent amount of money through that and i actually enjoy it. i genuinely think enjoyment must be derived from any financial project (of any sort) or else you will be frustrated with it. i do not find the slightest bit of enjoyment when i play poker. quite the opposite, in fact.
i own two other businesses, one that i am sure could be huge, but i would need several thousand that i could afford to spend on them. these are not "retail" like selling cards online pretty much is.
i took off the $700 i had left on ub (after blowing through a ton) and i get my computer back from repair tomorrow. i miss the $500 winning days, but its comforting to know that i wont ever have to endure the $500 losing days either. you feel on top of the world one day, and want to die the next. id rather be moderately happy everyday.
Serious post.
Dude you need a life coach. Atleast pick up the book called "The Secret". Your probably a solid poker player, but unless you can get your emotions under control you need to be in a 9-5 job or something else. your problem is not BR Management or Skill, your leak is in your HEAD. Control Tilt, control your emotions, seek emotional theropy (Not Joking or insulting) or coaching.