very unlucky to end up at the blackjack and roulette tables. A true mystery how that managed to happen

I know. I have lose more than $700k in gambling in my lifetime. I gamble more than 30 years in my life.

I am nearly 50 years old and still renting a room in a house shared, have nothing in my name. I know I am the one to be blamed for this and I knew this cycle very well myself.

waking up this morning, and the reality hit me hard, what I have done last night and have no idea how I am going to pay my rent etc.

Well at least you always have this thread to live vicariously through.

I am really f****

took loans from private lenders, $10k

thought of winning to pay my bills and pay my credit cards. dealer never going burst, 20 and blackjack 8 times in a row. I lose the 10k

went to fill in some online lenders I can googled, got about 12k loan approved

lost my first hand 2k

I bet 5k second blackjack hand.

2,8 for me and dealer got 6.

I double down to 10k, I got a ten, which gave me 20.

I was hoping to win or push at least but... dealer got 10 and then 5!!!! make it to 21!!! I can't believe my eyes. this is so unreal.

I went to self exclude from my local casino and I know its a pain but I can no longer take it. I don't really want to think about all the loans I took out and unsure about the interest

I am dead, I can only blame myself

There's no way anything in your last three posts is even remotely true. But still entertaining.

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