Join Date: Jul 2024
Posts: 2
After years of playing poker and making some little money my brother decided to stake me and gave me a roll of 2k (he's been a winning reg on PS for years), the deal was simple: grind, win $$ and when you have your own bankroll you return me the money.
I have to add some context by saying I don't have a stable job so what could be pennies for some of you is significant money for me.
I get the 2k and start playing NL50 on PS as previously agreed with my bro: after two weeks I'm exactly 305$ up and decide to play the 5$ in the casino for the lols. I open a slot game called "cashzuma" and proceed to turn the 5$ into 300$~... i got the free spins a few times and win big (I was playing .40c a spin). I thought to myself: I'm winning, what if I keep playing only with the money I've just won? Great idea.
I honestly never gave too much attention to pit games (idk how to play bj or baccarat) so I opened the live roulette lobby... and here it begins... oh boy
Roulette story: I began by betting small on numbers around the zero, idk why. At first I was losing and got down to to 150$ (from the 300$ I'd won at cashzuma) after betting on random numbers I go up to 900$, it felt like I couldn't lose. As I said before this was a lot of money to me, but I couldn't stop; I told myself "if I go down to 500$ I'll stop" I eventually get down to 500$ (the poker roll is still safe) and I'm leaning towards the monkey tilt part of the gambler spectrum. I bet 100$ on 5 numbers thinking okay it was a hell of a ride for 5$, BOOOM 26 BLACK BABY THERE WE ARRE BACK 3600$ AT THIS POINT I HAD ENOUGH TO RETURN THE 2000$ MY BROTHER GAVE ME AND GRIND NL50 BUT HEY I COULDN'T LOSE. Let me breathe for a second I just got flashbacks of what happened next.
So I have 2300$ -the poker roll- and 3600$ and it all started with 5$, but honestly I don't know if I could have stopped had I lost the 5$ so who cares.
I was so ****ing happy that at some point felt worried thinking about the old phrase "once you hit a big win you become addicted to it". I decided to take my roll seriously and did the following: 3600+2300 = 5500$ for poker and 400$ to f**k around at the roulette. Same story again I ****ING COULDN'T LOSE IT FELT SURREAL, I REMEMBER THINKING "THEY MAY THINK I'M CHEATING BECAUSE HOW TF YOU RUN THAT GOOD" obviously I was used to the swings of poker but roulette was a different beast. I reach 10k~ total, that's my liferoll I should stop now, well I did, that night. Head to bed and fell asleep.
The downfall: the night next I log in and my balance was 10400$~ WHY DIDN'T I ****ING BUMHUNT OR SOMERHING WHY THE F DID I NEED TO CONVINCE MYSELF THAT ID FKNIN BET 400 AND THATD BE IT. I open cashzuma and play for 2$ a spin chasing dem sweet free spins. -200$. Okay let's go back to live roulette 200$ on odd, ball hits red 36.
Standard, I'm actually laughing until I got the urge to continue. I bet 1k on third column, down to 9k I repeat similar EV+ moves until I'm down to 5k.
I learned then how it feels to have lost when you're still up. I bet 2000$ on 0 and it's four neighbors. Balls lands on 32 red YEAH BABY OMG I CAN'T FKN BELIEVE it and while I'm doing the math I realize I placed a bet on all the numbers but forgot 32 **** **** **** **** **** **** **** **** **** **** ****.
I PROCEED TO GRAB MY SCREEN AND PUNCH IT SEVERAL TIMES UNTIL IT GOES BLACK, I ALSO KICK MY COMPUTER AND SHOUT LIKE AN AUTISTIC MOTHAF** THE SOUND WAS FKNNN WEIRD my cat leaves the room running WHY DIDNT I FKN STOP.
I proceed to take some xannies and fell asleep after repeating 100000000 times "it doesn't matter with how much you started but what's the net, and the net since my brother gave me the 2k is +1k" The next day I woke up with a headache and thirsty, I tell my brother what happened and ask him if I can keep the 1k, he says yes. I withdraw 500$ buy a new screen give him the 2k back and leave 500$ in my account. Disgusting. Sorry for the long text but I felt like I needed to share this, **** **** ***.
I feel devastated, jobless and I know after this there's not a single chance I can grind at the poker tables.
-got 2k to play NL50
-gambled it up to 10400
-lost everything but 3k
