Degen Stories....
08-12-2010
, 02:58 PM
08-12-2010
, 03:17 PM
08-12-2010
, 04:45 PM
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Great stories!! Dont know how mine will compare but here it goes. It was about 8-9 yrs ago in Vegas. I was young and dumb (now Im just old and dumb), was playing my usual roulette gig. Bet $25 on red or black and $25 on the mids (#13-24 I believe). Its actually a pretty good system and I win prob 70% of the time if I stick to the game plan. Break even if you hit the color, make $25 if you hit the mids, make $75 if you hit both. The mids seem to hit more often than any other numbers. Anyways back to the story.
It was abt 6am I think, me and a buddy were getting back to our hotel rafter leaving Dre's (sp?). Of course we were flugged up, so we decided to sit and play some roulette. After like 2 hrs Im up 1k. We actually have a pretty good crowd there, some playing, some watching. Having a great time, still drinking. I start betting numbers. My favs are 13,14,23,32. Boom, 32 hits and I have $5on it. I say to my buddy (and the crowd), its coming again. I put $25 on it, boom it hits again. Abt 5 other people had also bet on 32, including two hot ass chicks that were standing behind me touching my back with their nice breastasis'. I yell loudly, its coming again. Everybody is like, ya right, no way. Im like WAYYYYYYYYYYY. So now abt 10 people have bet on 32, the chips stacked highest Ive ever seen on a number. I put $100 on it. And this I will never forget, it hits in 32, pops out, hits like 3 other numbers, makes it back around (which hardly ever happens) and drops in 32. The place goes apeshat.
The girls are now rubbing all over me, kissing me, etc. I just won them a couple grand each. The hotter of the two, whispers in my ear she will do me for free. This girl was ratarded hot, but in my haze, didnt really click what she meant. After abt two minutes of thinking, I put two+two together. Normally I wouldnt touch a hooker, but this chick was seriously one of the hottest chicks I had ever seen in my life. At the same time, there is now a crowd of like 50 people gathered, all going crazy. Everybody is throwing questions at me, like how did I know the number was going to hit? Whats my system? Bla, bla bla...
Like 20 minutes goes by after Im bragging abt how I can beat casinos, Im a pro gambler, etc. The girls are still there and the one asks if I have a room here. I tell her yes, but im running hot and want to gamble. Well of course I just blew any chance I had bc Im a dumbazz. She gets pissed and leaves. I didnt care, everybody wanted to sit next to me and pick my brain.
At this point Im up at least 10k, not really sure exact amt but i had a shat ton of chips. Fast forward to 5pm. Im still at the table, the only original left and I walk away from the table with 500 bucks. I was playing only numbers at that point and couldnt hit anything. I suck.
It was abt 6am I think, me and a buddy were getting back to our hotel rafter leaving Dre's (sp?). Of course we were flugged up, so we decided to sit and play some roulette. After like 2 hrs Im up 1k. We actually have a pretty good crowd there, some playing, some watching. Having a great time, still drinking. I start betting numbers. My favs are 13,14,23,32. Boom, 32 hits and I have $5on it. I say to my buddy (and the crowd), its coming again. I put $25 on it, boom it hits again. Abt 5 other people had also bet on 32, including two hot ass chicks that were standing behind me touching my back with their nice breastasis'. I yell loudly, its coming again. Everybody is like, ya right, no way. Im like WAYYYYYYYYYYY. So now abt 10 people have bet on 32, the chips stacked highest Ive ever seen on a number. I put $100 on it. And this I will never forget, it hits in 32, pops out, hits like 3 other numbers, makes it back around (which hardly ever happens) and drops in 32. The place goes apeshat.
The girls are now rubbing all over me, kissing me, etc. I just won them a couple grand each. The hotter of the two, whispers in my ear she will do me for free. This girl was ratarded hot, but in my haze, didnt really click what she meant. After abt two minutes of thinking, I put two+two together. Normally I wouldnt touch a hooker, but this chick was seriously one of the hottest chicks I had ever seen in my life. At the same time, there is now a crowd of like 50 people gathered, all going crazy. Everybody is throwing questions at me, like how did I know the number was going to hit? Whats my system? Bla, bla bla...
Like 20 minutes goes by after Im bragging abt how I can beat casinos, Im a pro gambler, etc. The girls are still there and the one asks if I have a room here. I tell her yes, but im running hot and want to gamble. Well of course I just blew any chance I had bc Im a dumbazz. She gets pissed and leaves. I didnt care, everybody wanted to sit next to me and pick my brain.
At this point Im up at least 10k, not really sure exact amt but i had a shat ton of chips. Fast forward to 5pm. Im still at the table, the only original left and I walk away from the table with 500 bucks. I was playing only numbers at that point and couldnt hit anything. I suck.
08-12-2010
, 05:31 PM
i've always won $5k, spent it all, won $10k, spent it all, won $5k spent it all. I finally quick after one time I won $20k and lost it all (didnt even spend any!). a year later i started playing again; i practiced great BRM on my way to $6k in a month. then i got the job i currently have, and the night i got the offer i blew the $6k in 60 minutes at 5/10 and 10/20 PLO. Since then I am down probably another $10-15k in gambling losses.
However, my job pays me enough and i'm living very comfortably
i just gamble to gamble, and i gamble to lose I guess.
i'm a degen but support my degeneracy through non-degeneracy most of the time
i've bet on some of the dumbest **** you can think of. literally try to think of a bet, and im sure we will come to terms to bet on. i like to think that 40/60 is close enough to a flip that i'll take it everytime.
However, my job pays me enough and i'm living very comfortably
i just gamble to gamble, and i gamble to lose I guess.
i'm a degen but support my degeneracy through non-degeneracy most of the time
i've bet on some of the dumbest **** you can think of. literally try to think of a bet, and im sure we will come to terms to bet on. i like to think that 40/60 is close enough to a flip that i'll take it everytime.
08-18-2010
, 04:33 PM
08-23-2010
, 04:43 AM
Okay, time to add my own degenstorie in here :
first things first : English is not my 1st language so forgive me if the text includes errors :P
The Story ( true one ) :
This happened like 2years ago, when i were military service on my country. My training lasted 6months ( the minimun ). I met my girlfriend when i have been 2months on military. Its a long story how i met her but she was 3yrs older than me ( 24 ) and she lived 280km ( 180miles ) away from me. Every weekend when i had 2days vacation out of military i went to see her.
Everything went really good like next 4 months. Then we decided to start searching apartment of our own ( she lived with her parents atm ). I was just released from military and starting to play poker seriously again. Her family was like so old fashion rednecks and her mom/dad always thinked like i had somekind of urgent need to play pokerz allthe time ( wich was true
).
One night in december, i joined a 15k FREEROLL with 61 players (!!!) ... yes it was 15k GTD freeroll on FTP that started with 61 players. 6hrs later i won and received 3750$. My gf was sleeping and i woke her up and said all these kind of stuff like : "now we can pay 2 rents, buy some cool furnitures, and start a new happy life" etc etc etc.
Ofc she was so freaking happy that i finally ( she watched me loosing on MTT`s like those 4months, because i usually played at night when i was visiting her ) made some money out of poker. She telled to his parents what i won and everybody was so happy/ proud what i achieved..........
( Now its getting interested, for all you degens out there !!! )
2weeks later :
The withdrawal was succesfully made to my account.
GF @ work
Me getting fabolous idea to try whats PLO500 looks like.
4hrs later : Not even single penny in my account/pocket. I tilted and blow away all those moneys i won. I was thinking like "oh, well. nothing unusual here, i have tilted these kind of "rolls" many times".
I told my GF what happened.
2weeks later again :
we broke up She told that cant live with degen like me.
Cliffs : OP wins 3750$
-Promises to put some money for the new apartment.
-Plays PLO500 when withdrawal arrived to bank account
- Looses everything
- Told his GF
- She dumped OP
Beat : i suffered a horrible badbeat on PLO500 that caused the TILT
Brag : She was pretty freaking good in bed ( really dont know if this should be on beat or brag ? )
variance : She wasnt that nice, and i have lived now 1,5yrs with my new gf, that is way nicer / better than the old one. + She understands me playing poker and tilting
Thanks for reading, i know its a long post!
ps, No pics of girlfriends
-jax
first things first : English is not my 1st language so forgive me if the text includes errors :P
The Story ( true one ) :
This happened like 2years ago, when i were military service on my country. My training lasted 6months ( the minimun ). I met my girlfriend when i have been 2months on military. Its a long story how i met her but she was 3yrs older than me ( 24 ) and she lived 280km ( 180miles ) away from me. Every weekend when i had 2days vacation out of military i went to see her.
Everything went really good like next 4 months. Then we decided to start searching apartment of our own ( she lived with her parents atm ). I was just released from military and starting to play poker seriously again. Her family was like so old fashion rednecks and her mom/dad always thinked like i had somekind of urgent need to play pokerz allthe time ( wich was true
).One night in december, i joined a 15k FREEROLL with 61 players (!!!) ... yes it was 15k GTD freeroll on FTP that started with 61 players. 6hrs later i won and received 3750$. My gf was sleeping and i woke her up and said all these kind of stuff like : "now we can pay 2 rents, buy some cool furnitures, and start a new happy life" etc etc etc.
Ofc she was so freaking happy that i finally ( she watched me loosing on MTT`s like those 4months, because i usually played at night when i was visiting her
) made some money out of poker. She telled to his parents what i won and everybody was so happy/ proud what i achieved..........( Now its getting interested, for all you degens out there !!! )
2weeks later :
The withdrawal was succesfully made to my account.
GF @ work
Me getting fabolous idea to try whats PLO500 looks like.
4hrs later : Not even single penny in my account/pocket. I tilted and blow away all those moneys i won. I was thinking like "oh, well. nothing unusual here, i have tilted these kind of "rolls" many times".
I told my GF what happened.
2weeks later again :
we broke up
She told that cant live with degen like me.Cliffs : OP wins 3750$
-Promises to put some money for the new apartment.
-Plays PLO500 when withdrawal arrived to bank account
- Looses everything
- Told his GF
- She dumped OP
Beat : i suffered a horrible badbeat on PLO500 that caused the TILT
Brag : She was pretty freaking good in bed ( really dont know if this should be on beat or brag ? )
variance : She wasnt that nice, and i have lived now 1,5yrs with my new gf, that is way nicer / better than the old one. + She understands me playing poker and tilting
Thanks for reading, i know its a long post!
ps, No pics of girlfriends
-jax
08-25-2010
, 12:38 PM
08-25-2010
, 02:38 PM
08-25-2010
, 02:47 PM
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grinded 600--> 30k in three months, lost it all playing 10/20 plo in one night. also i was blackout drunk at the time. horrifying morning. spring break started in the few days, so i just got on a train and went home without telling my roommates, parents, teachers.
Last edited by DRUNKCOWBOY; 08-25-2010 at 02:48 PM.
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08-25-2010
, 03:30 PM
08-25-2010
, 03:30 PM
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Someone's gotta teach me how to run so damn hot. I have had thousands of dollars (<10K obv) and playing 2/5 and 5/10 NL. Of course I went from dead broke to rolling in hundos upto 5K many times, back and forth. But never did I run as hot in my life. Been playing poker seriously since 2007.
09-03-2010
, 09:02 AM
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My very first fist-fight was with Barry Greenstien's son (his real one nathan, not that other hairy doosh). It was at a carl's junior in torracne (you know the one on PCH and hawthorne) and we were playing .25/.50 with actual quarters.
I made fun of him for getting kicked out of our high school (Smoking weed) over xanga. And when he saw me he sucker punched me.
What a doosh.
Not really a degen story but i figure you guys might enjoy it.
I made fun of him for getting kicked out of our high school (Smoking weed) over xanga. And when he saw me he sucker punched me.
What a doosh.
Not really a degen story but i figure you guys might enjoy it.
09-09-2010
, 08:25 PM
Good read. i just lost $750 of student loan money in 2 days playing on UB, that was money i have to live on.
tomorrow i am going to drive to the casino with $300 and try win it back playing poker.
tomorrow i am going to drive to the casino with $300 and try win it back playing poker.
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So here it goes. There are a lot of stories on here talking about people losing a lot of money and being complete degenerates. While this story will be no different. One thing I can absolutely asure you, everything i am about to say is absolutely true.
So I am 25 years old and about to graduate college this May. I majored in Operations and Supply Chain managment. I just moved to a city where there is big casino only minutes from my house. I lived at home until now and have worked full time at a factory while going to school. I was able to cash out my 401K and got a big tax return this year. I would of had a lot more saved, but ever since i turned 20 i lost a lot of money online, then at the casino. I always had this go for b1roke attitude. And due to that attitude,this is ultimately what happened. However, due to my cash out i was able to move out with over 17k cash.
Everything was going good. I was playing poker, keeping track of my results, and doing moderately well. My only problem was, i got into the BAD habit of chasing my losses on the ol' roulette table. I would lose 4-800 playing poker, go down to the roulette table and next thing I know I would lose a grand. But wait I can't stop there. So i'd take out another grand, if that didn't work, **** it I can't stop now I'll try it again. I probably did this 4-6 times and it always worked out OK. Winning most of my money back if not all and then some. However, this last week my greed took over me. I just got a job offer for a great position for good money. My net worth was currently 13k (not counting student loans, auto loan, and a revolving credit account).
But i was pretty happy with that. I went to the casino last Friday April 9th. I won 1200 playing 3-5 NL, felt really good so I took 500 down to the roulette table. I won 900 there so everything was perfect. A buddy of mine came over after the casino and we hung out for a bit. I dropped him back off at the casino around midnight and this is where I made the biggest mistake of my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I took 1200 back with me. I figured hey, i'm up and who knows maybe today is my lucky day! I went in and played 3-5 for about a half hour, action was slow because i was a bit buzzed and feeling greedy. So i move to the 5-5 PLO table. I was up a couple of hundrend before taking some bad beats and losing the 1200 i brought with me. This is what it is. I should have just went home and slept it off becuase "hey" I'm still up for the day.
But no not me, I'm a ****ING DEGENERATE! So I made the worst decision of my life (again)! I went down to the check cashier and like a dumb ass (somehow i brought my atm card with me which was an idiot move!) I pulled out 800. Take it to the roulette table and lose it within minutes. **** this, i take out another 800. Lose that! Now i'm really pissed! There's my profit and 800 more. So i take out 700 more. Now i lost that and my card doesn't work becuase i'm at my limit. Up 2K to down 3500. What a joke!
So i go home, i live about 10 minutes from the casino, and grab 1400 i had saved for a vacation I was suppose to take this coming week. I take that to the casino, put it in on roulette and lose that too!. Well, I can't stop now I'm down 5k and SUPER PISSED AT MYSELF!!!
By this time the bank is almost open on Saturday. I go to my bank and take out the last 2k i had in there. I take this to the rouette table. I pull out a grand and miracously turn this into 4500. OK this is the point that keeps playing back in my head I should have just stopped here. Live to fight another day. But no, I was down 1500 still and felt like I could get it ALL BACK! So i lay a grand out on the table and of course ****ing Red 1 hits, i never play that ****ing number! So now i'm on tilt and next thing i know, the 5500 i had on me, is all gone within the next hour! What a joke, I am disgusted with myself.
I sleep all weekend, should have been doing massive amounts of homework.
But instead i'm feeling sorry for my self. Now my 15k roll has just shrunk down to 7k. I had another grand in a different debit account, i with draw that and lose it. Great!
Now Monday comes, I have class but don't feel like going. I had a grand sitting in at US bank, I take that out. I make 2500 on the roulette table, should have stopped, but nope next thing i know. BUST-O!!!!
Now all i have left is 5k at a bank down by my parents. I don't touch that until this Friday. I just planned on putting in the bank for bills and laying low for a while. But I kept a grand to try and make another run. Oh yeah On Monday I went and took a grand out of my credit account (so now that is at its 5k max, awesome!) and of course i lost that on monday.
But anyway, Friday. I saved a grand to gamble with on roulette. I lost that pretty quickly and bad habits don't die easily, I quickly go the check cashier and take out another 900. I miracously turn this into 4k. Yay got my money back and made 2k. I called up to get a seat on the PLO table beacuse at least there my odds of getting paid are much better then this ****!
I go up to the table and its full. OK, maybe this is a sign, maybe i should keep playing roulette. NOPE, DEAD WRONG! I lose 3600 and feel like ****. Go up stairs and of course there is a seat open NOW! I cash out my last 1500 from the bank at the check cashier. Play like ****, was down to about 400 and then had a sick run and turned this into 4k. I should of stopped here after being such a douche bag, but no not me, remember, I'm going for even or broke!
Take coulpe of bad beats and bad calls and next thing I know... I'm wishing I stopped when I had 7k just a few hours ago!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My Life's a joke! So what do I do? I have a grand left in my checking account, oh check cashier here i come. Of course, I lost that, and there it is. I"M ****ING BROKE! 15k of hard earned money, cashed out my 401k and everything, living on my own, and within a week. I'm dead broke.
I swear if i didn't love my parents so much. I would jump out of my apartment building and splat on the ****ing concrete! I'm so hard up for action i even went to a pay advance today to get a loan, thats right a ****ing loan! $410 i got for 92 dollars interest. What the hell am i even going to do with that!? And of course i lost that...
And what really makes me mad about all of this, is that vaction i was SUPPOSE to go on. Was to visit a girl i met in Colorado on my 21st birthday. I was hoping to marry this girl, we have stayed in touch the entire time. But after all of this I have no money to go and the time i would be there i need to spend getting caught up on school work so i can actually graduate!
So now she's pissed and told me to never talk to her again. I HATE MYSELF!
So there it is, on top of the world and with in 12 hours i lost 11k. And within a week I lost 17k!
This is money I work my whole life for. And considering the fact that i lost a **** ton between 21-24 I thought I already learned my lesson!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????? OBVIOUSLY NOT!!!!
And the real ****ed up thing is that this great job offer i have, is contigent on me passing a drug test. And of course i smoke pot. So I'm praying to GOD that I passed that. I didn't smoke for a week when i took it, and I used Q Carbo from GNC so please God let me Pass I'll find out next week.
So if i don't get that job my life is pretty much ruined, love for my parents or not I just might be jumping out of that window. Now i'm praying on hitting the powerball or megabuck tonight. My last 4 bucks put to good use, i hope?! lol
The thing is, is that i already was up and down this road. I went to the roulette table to chase after 1200 bucks and now i lost 17 grand! And i don't have a ****ing dime to my name!
I can't win any money back when I am flat broke, we all know that! But to be honest I don't even want to gamble anymore, which is really sad. I know i'm a really good poker player. But all my ambitions and aspirations for that have gone out the window. I mean 17k, I can't get that back. I just need to let it go.
You know you read these stories, and always say, that would never happen to me. But it is so easy to do it. To forget about what money is worth and lose yourself trying to get even, when in reality i'm doing the complete opposite!
My whole life outlook has changed. I don't know what I'm going to do now. I'm just praying i can finish this semster and graduate, praying i pass my drug test to get a great career started.
I think at this point I feel like i'm leaving poker/gambling behind me for a long time. I'm going to focus on my career and getting a good education. Get my MBA and try to be making 70k in a few years, thats good money, especially if i don't gamble it away!
But I'm just so sick with the reality of what i did to myself. And even worse, I am dead serious about wanting to marry that girl in Colorado. Who knows if she will ever talk to me again?
I will probably just feel sorry for myself for the rest of the day. And try to wake up tomorrow with a new zest for life. Like a rebirth. Try to focus on the positive and try to invoke my entrepenerial spirit. I mean hey, maybe this has all happened for a reason (although probably not, more then likely i'm just a ****ing masocist!)
Well that's my story of degeneracy! I hope you found it worth your time to read. I wish I could have made this stuff up, but nope, its all to real...
So I am 25 years old and about to graduate college this May. I majored in Operations and Supply Chain managment. I just moved to a city where there is big casino only minutes from my house. I lived at home until now and have worked full time at a factory while going to school. I was able to cash out my 401K and got a big tax return this year. I would of had a lot more saved, but ever since i turned 20 i lost a lot of money online, then at the casino. I always had this go for b1roke attitude. And due to that attitude,this is ultimately what happened. However, due to my cash out i was able to move out with over 17k cash.
Everything was going good. I was playing poker, keeping track of my results, and doing moderately well. My only problem was, i got into the BAD habit of chasing my losses on the ol' roulette table. I would lose 4-800 playing poker, go down to the roulette table and next thing I know I would lose a grand. But wait I can't stop there. So i'd take out another grand, if that didn't work, **** it I can't stop now I'll try it again. I probably did this 4-6 times and it always worked out OK. Winning most of my money back if not all and then some. However, this last week my greed took over me. I just got a job offer for a great position for good money. My net worth was currently 13k (not counting student loans, auto loan, and a revolving credit account).
But i was pretty happy with that. I went to the casino last Friday April 9th. I won 1200 playing 3-5 NL, felt really good so I took 500 down to the roulette table. I won 900 there so everything was perfect. A buddy of mine came over after the casino and we hung out for a bit. I dropped him back off at the casino around midnight and this is where I made the biggest mistake of my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I took 1200 back with me. I figured hey, i'm up and who knows maybe today is my lucky day! I went in and played 3-5 for about a half hour, action was slow because i was a bit buzzed and feeling greedy. So i move to the 5-5 PLO table. I was up a couple of hundrend before taking some bad beats and losing the 1200 i brought with me. This is what it is. I should have just went home and slept it off becuase "hey" I'm still up for the day.
But no not me, I'm a ****ING DEGENERATE! So I made the worst decision of my life (again)! I went down to the check cashier and like a dumb ass (somehow i brought my atm card with me which was an idiot move!) I pulled out 800. Take it to the roulette table and lose it within minutes. **** this, i take out another 800. Lose that! Now i'm really pissed! There's my profit and 800 more. So i take out 700 more. Now i lost that and my card doesn't work becuase i'm at my limit. Up 2K to down 3500. What a joke!
So i go home, i live about 10 minutes from the casino, and grab 1400 i had saved for a vacation I was suppose to take this coming week. I take that to the casino, put it in on roulette and lose that too!. Well, I can't stop now I'm down 5k and SUPER PISSED AT MYSELF!!!
By this time the bank is almost open on Saturday. I go to my bank and take out the last 2k i had in there. I take this to the rouette table. I pull out a grand and miracously turn this into 4500. OK this is the point that keeps playing back in my head I should have just stopped here. Live to fight another day. But no, I was down 1500 still and felt like I could get it ALL BACK! So i lay a grand out on the table and of course ****ing Red 1 hits, i never play that ****ing number! So now i'm on tilt and next thing i know, the 5500 i had on me, is all gone within the next hour! What a joke, I am disgusted with myself.
I sleep all weekend, should have been doing massive amounts of homework.
But instead i'm feeling sorry for my self. Now my 15k roll has just shrunk down to 7k. I had another grand in a different debit account, i with draw that and lose it. Great!
Now Monday comes, I have class but don't feel like going. I had a grand sitting in at US bank, I take that out. I make 2500 on the roulette table, should have stopped, but nope next thing i know. BUST-O!!!!
Now all i have left is 5k at a bank down by my parents. I don't touch that until this Friday. I just planned on putting in the bank for bills and laying low for a while. But I kept a grand to try and make another run. Oh yeah On Monday I went and took a grand out of my credit account (so now that is at its 5k max, awesome!) and of course i lost that on monday.
But anyway, Friday. I saved a grand to gamble with on roulette. I lost that pretty quickly and bad habits don't die easily, I quickly go the check cashier and take out another 900. I miracously turn this into 4k. Yay got my money back and made 2k. I called up to get a seat on the PLO table beacuse at least there my odds of getting paid are much better then this ****!
I go up to the table and its full. OK, maybe this is a sign, maybe i should keep playing roulette. NOPE, DEAD WRONG! I lose 3600 and feel like ****. Go up stairs and of course there is a seat open NOW! I cash out my last 1500 from the bank at the check cashier. Play like ****, was down to about 400 and then had a sick run and turned this into 4k. I should of stopped here after being such a douche bag, but no not me, remember, I'm going for even or broke!
Take coulpe of bad beats and bad calls and next thing I know... I'm wishing I stopped when I had 7k just a few hours ago!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My Life's a joke! So what do I do? I have a grand left in my checking account, oh check cashier here i come. Of course, I lost that, and there it is. I"M ****ING BROKE! 15k of hard earned money, cashed out my 401k and everything, living on my own, and within a week. I'm dead broke.
I swear if i didn't love my parents so much. I would jump out of my apartment building and splat on the ****ing concrete! I'm so hard up for action i even went to a pay advance today to get a loan, thats right a ****ing loan! $410 i got for 92 dollars interest. What the hell am i even going to do with that!? And of course i lost that...
And what really makes me mad about all of this, is that vaction i was SUPPOSE to go on. Was to visit a girl i met in Colorado on my 21st birthday. I was hoping to marry this girl, we have stayed in touch the entire time. But after all of this I have no money to go and the time i would be there i need to spend getting caught up on school work so i can actually graduate!
So now she's pissed and told me to never talk to her again. I HATE MYSELF!
So there it is, on top of the world and with in 12 hours i lost 11k. And within a week I lost 17k!
This is money I work my whole life for. And considering the fact that i lost a **** ton between 21-24 I thought I already learned my lesson!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????? OBVIOUSLY NOT!!!!
And the real ****ed up thing is that this great job offer i have, is contigent on me passing a drug test. And of course i smoke pot. So I'm praying to GOD that I passed that. I didn't smoke for a week when i took it, and I used Q Carbo from GNC so please God let me Pass I'll find out next week.
So if i don't get that job my life is pretty much ruined, love for my parents or not I just might be jumping out of that window. Now i'm praying on hitting the powerball or megabuck tonight. My last 4 bucks put to good use, i hope?! lol
The thing is, is that i already was up and down this road. I went to the roulette table to chase after 1200 bucks and now i lost 17 grand! And i don't have a ****ing dime to my name!
I can't win any money back when I am flat broke, we all know that! But to be honest I don't even want to gamble anymore, which is really sad. I know i'm a really good poker player. But all my ambitions and aspirations for that have gone out the window. I mean 17k, I can't get that back. I just need to let it go.
You know you read these stories, and always say, that would never happen to me. But it is so easy to do it. To forget about what money is worth and lose yourself trying to get even, when in reality i'm doing the complete opposite!
My whole life outlook has changed. I don't know what I'm going to do now. I'm just praying i can finish this semster and graduate, praying i pass my drug test to get a great career started.
I think at this point I feel like i'm leaving poker/gambling behind me for a long time. I'm going to focus on my career and getting a good education. Get my MBA and try to be making 70k in a few years, thats good money, especially if i don't gamble it away!
But I'm just so sick with the reality of what i did to myself. And even worse, I am dead serious about wanting to marry that girl in Colorado. Who knows if she will ever talk to me again?
I will probably just feel sorry for myself for the rest of the day. And try to wake up tomorrow with a new zest for life. Like a rebirth. Try to focus on the positive and try to invoke my entrepenerial spirit. I mean hey, maybe this has all happened for a reason (although probably not, more then likely i'm just a ****ing masocist!)
Well that's my story of degeneracy! I hope you found it worth your time to read. I wish I could have made this stuff up, but nope, its all to real...