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I've held this in long enough. The shame, guilt, lies. Pretending to be cool and knowing what the **** I'm talking about. I've been holding this in for years. I've cried and cried and cried. I'm fed up with my bitch behavior. It's time to ****ing take things into my own hands and change. I'm not stopping, I'm going to gain this all back the slow, and right way. Here's my story.
In 2019 I learned about the stock market. Like a responsible retail investor, I created baskets and diversified my equity investments.
In 2020, I learned about options.
My first gamble was a meme stock I found on WSB that rhymes with Ped Pad Peyon. That was the start of my entire $1M loss and life downfall.
It felt so good to see those big spikes in gains.
But it also felt like the end of the world when it all went to $0.
For some reason, I always came back. I tasted the forbidden fruit, and was addicted.
Fast forward two years, I needed a source for more trading capital - I sold my house and car, maxed out credit cards, borrowed from the bank, and lenders. I lied to family/friends to get money, and worked odd jobs that were shameful.
My wife who I'd been with for 12 years left me, we didn't sign a prenup so there was that whole process...then she took custody of the kids.
Sure, I lost $1,030,220.81. But the worst part of it all, is I lost loved ones, every friend in my life, and every single asset I owned. I cried like a ****ing bitch for days on end, slept on benches, backyards, and under bridges.
I managed to save up some money, and am now living on my own, in a one-bedroom apartment.
I know it I can do this. I know I can make it all back. I've heard stories and seen people do it. I understand all the technical analysis, indicators, price action, gamma exposure, OI, risk-free interest, blah blah ****ing blah. I know it all. What made me lose it all wasn't my understanding of the markets, it was my ego, my greed, and lack of discipline. My psyche.
I've spent the last 2 yrs dedicating myself to mastering every technical aspect of the market. I've met 10 figure retail investors, hedgefund managers, and everyone in between. Really dedicated myself to learning the markets. Most importantly, I've made good progress mastering my emotions. I've even gone on months without masturbating. I needed to model a stimulus that was just as rewarding as gambling.
I'm here to show that I can gradually get out of this hell-hole.
I've managed to trade back up to $25k, and in the last week I made $14k (options + futures). I will get back to $1M. I'm just here to prove to the world and myself that this isn't over.
Is it the most hedged / low risk decision? **** no. The degen surely lives on inside me. But I've tamed it. I guess if you're looking for entertainment, or a person to root for, you can find me on X. Username is lost1million. I'll try to give periodic updates here as well.
This is pretty much it for me. Here we go.