me too, now I quit heroin and barely gamble.

I hate to say it, gents, but I have committed to not stepping foot in casinos until May 2021.

Will that be the month of your 18th birthday.


just kidding

No it'll just take him that long to save up his allowance to have enough to make a couple bets.

It's gonna make Vegas really weird
Exactly, I am too broke to place 10k a hand

You still going in Jan?

Unless my Dutch friend bails, oui.

I think back to when I was a kid...

You know it seems like gambling isn’t my only issue. I love taking money from people - (with intention to pay it back of course although that isn’t working great) and to be fair more like “stealing”.

When I was 6 I knew my grandma kept cash in her purse. Eventually one day I went in and took like half of it. Not knowing what to do with it I shoved it under the couch. I got caught eventually - got scolded for it by my parents and that was that.

When I was 9 my cousin had this huge binder of basketball cards. He lived an hour away from us and we used to visit maybe 1x a month. One fine day I jacked like 8 cards from that binder and it was all players from the 80s so I had no idea who I was even stealing. One day I came over to his house again and said hey man check out my cards and he figured out they were his and started crying and told his mother. Again I got away with it after some scolding.

Why did I steal these cards if I planned on giving it back? Why did I take money from my grandma’s purse only to shove it under the couch with no intention to use it?

As I got older..some things I remember: obviously taking money out of my parents debit card for gambling purposes when I was in my teens. At least there is “reason” for the theft there which was to gamble.

Signed up my gf to Bet365 for the 100% bonus and used her credit card to sign up - only to hit that thing for like 10k and max it out while she slept next to me - confessed in the morning and I will never ever forget that day. I remember it vividly. Handsomely paid her back eventually and have gone in and out of debt 3-4x since but for some reason I’ll never forget this.

When I was 20 my friend in college who I gambled with had a sportsbetting account with an e wallet..I remember signing into his account without him knowing and depositing $100 at a time till about $6-700 only to finally breakdown and confess.

So I like to steal? Does this make sense? In most of these cases I did it to gamble because I had no money to. But in the ones where I was young...why was I doing this? Especially when I would confess myself? There were a couple of times I could’ve gotten away with it but I confessed anyways. I don’t understand? Do I have some psychological thing where I love to steal from people I love? I already know I’m a compulsive liar that’s for sure.

Anyways just remembered these old stories of theft as I lay in my bed not sleeping as usual.

You know the answer, Snipes.

Shipes = TheUltimateSheriff?

Snipes that is very tame tbh. Think most of us have stole the odd thing here and there.

If grow up in family that is messed up then you will steal of family as you will have anger and it just a roundabout until we get flung of and land somewhere. There is definitely a gene though that you can inherent or be born with that makes you more addicted to things. Also upbringing but that good thing about getting old you stop worrying about what up with you and just think meh whatever.

Too many ridiculous posts to quote from this beauty, sublime thred

Gold

I love when my non degen friends drop the “if I was you’d I’d be so rich because I’d withdraw at the peak of every heater. You know you just have to learn to walk away”

Unsportsmanlike conduct - 10 posts

Speaking to someone who lost everything his live savings,house and family and is working min wage job. It.must be horrible thinking that your life's work and love of your family has gone due to bad judgement in small period of your life.

Felt so sorry for him.

Tell him to poast it here

This is ultimately where I am headed. It happens fast but nothing to feel sorry about. Some people are born with deadly diseases and don’t see the light of day. Some are born blind/deaf etc. I think they are the ones you should feel sorry for.

I don’t feel sorry for myself I feel sorry for the others I’ve harmed. You lose it all around you fast but it takes a lifetime to make it up to them. Problem is most people are not willing to stick around a lifetime after you’ve burned them. They have no reason to. I wouldn’t.

I wish there was a little more awareness with the gambling disease that’s the only thing I wish for. Like if I was doing meth or heroin I feel like my loved ones would understand better - gambled it all away and burned us? That seems more “evil” because your actions were not occurring while you were high off a drug.

There are so many layers and chances a degen gets. They’re programmed to ignore them all. I never felt sorry for my loved ones in those moments where I should have and so ultimately that’s why I ended up here. Didn’t think of my parents and girlfriend when I was running up their money on an online BJ session but now I do. Go figure.

If my life has been decided and I have an option of everyone around me being whole while I work a **** job I take it. Even if it means I never hear from them again. You have to pay some sort of a price when you hurt people regardless of the excuse. The issue with degenerates is that they hate themselves and when you hate yourself you’re not ever going to care for anybody even if you think you do.

I’m sure his family is in a better place. And I’m sure he is too. People get over people and that’s fact. My girlfriend is better off ending it with me and mourning me and her lost years with me for about a year and moving on. In 3 years she’s better off with no need to look back. Same goes with my parents.

I’ve screwed up for about 3-4 years now and it will ultimately set the tone for the rest of my years and I have accepted that. I had a chance at everything and I was very blessed and lucky even though I think I run like dog ****. I didn’t seem to want it and had to ruin it. Pay up now buddy. Money isn’t important..people are. Me and every other degen who has harmed his or her family for years deserve to lose them. Blame it on the disease or blame it on the weather. Don’t matter..life is hard and even harder when you **** it all up.

I’d love for everyone to stick around while I get back on my feet. I just don’t think I deserve it and a part of me will never truly understand the damage I’ve done if they do. I kind of want them gone because I know I’ll never stop hurting them. I don’t trust myself to ever change..I see myself outside a casino or in Vegas begging for change to place a parlay.

There is no way to sugar coat the ultimate reality for a top tier degen. By top tier degen I mean guys like me..who will gamble it all and lie and cheat till their last breath to get a fix and keep digging a hole until it can’t go deeper. For every bounce back story and ted talk that you see where a guy came back from being a degen...there are 100 other degens who lost everything in life and are offering handjobs for $5. Is it fair? I don’t know..is it fair that a child can be born with a small heart and can’t live past the 4 day mark? Is it fair when someone is crossing the street and they get killed by a drunk driver? Nothing is fair in life and if good innocent can get the **** end of a stick then I truly believe degens should and will. Comeback or no comeback.

But of course this is all contingent on me not going on a multi million dollar heater and taking care of everyone I love. Rather than say sorry I will say “you’re welcome” when I take care of everyone. And then I will do the Ted Talk and the book and movie. Now this scenario is going down 100%. If it doesn’t it’s what I wrote above.

The guy you’re talking to flop gave up too soon. You see it’s an operation..he shut the operation down too quick. Does the CIA officer on Netflix shut the operation down when her chief says “it’s over you’re being transferred” or does the CIA officer take it upon herself to hire her own team to take down the terrorist? Obviously the latter. Your friend shut down..I will catch him myself. That’s the difference. Delusional degen Snipes out!

Many of you will take the last couple of paragraphs the wrong way. I’m just trying to keep a depressing reality as light as possible. Life is hard..hope you all get what you’re looking for before it’s over.

I for one appreciated the honest post FWIW

GL bro

Uncut Gems is an awesome movie. One very good degen story. Highly recommend people to check it out - probably the best gambling movie in a long time.

Im nowhere a top level Degen but have had my problems with gambling/personal issues over the years and I remember reading that the problem with degens is that we enjoy the feeling of trying to save ourselves, like subconsciously we say lets **** everything up and see if we can get out of it. Climbing out of the hole is addictive in itself.
I think back to some of my crazy roulette sessions where I was stuck big time and would do myself secret deals like if I get even I will never do this to myself again, I would get way past even then guess what?
In my personal life also I have had steady jobs and decent relationships and I would **** it up every time only to think why the **** did I do that afterwards only to do it again later.
Anyways I wish you the best Snipes and hope you get out of this mess, I hope you post more if you feel like it cause your posts are always worth a read.

Snipes good post. Never had break from gambling since I started at young age. The difference In life quality if give up would be huge ( I would guess ).

Gambling is the ultimate rush. When I lose being out of action is just as annoying as the money spent. Addict's goin addict. And any one who tells you to give up is wrong as something that feels so good could never be bad.