I used to think being a degen was like trying to catch lightning in a bottle, but it's so much worse. Even when you catch a big win you still piss it all away.
I've pushed my luck three times and got luckier than all ****. That $47k win dwindled down into $17k. I bet $7k on third. At the last second I switched it to second 12, because of my degen mind noticing some cosmic signs. It straight up miracle bounced out of 31 into 14. I felt so, so good... Watching it in slow motion it looked like a for sure 31, but it came 14. Switching at the last second was like a $20k swing to the good!
That put me at a $31k balance that I turned into $42k in another two spins. What a relief, I can stop... or you know, run up that $2k into something big, and quit at a nice even 40, right? This always works out well...
Well this time it did work out. I'm sitting at $53k and freerolling all of my sports bets I made. I'll post pics later, I permanently denied myself access to the casino and poker on partypoker. I left the sportsbook open as I have those bets placed and I didn't want them to try **** me around somehow.
I have four pretty big bets (for me) that I'm freerolling now, and if I win em all I'm at north of 60k. When this money finally clears I'm gonna send partypoker a nice **** you email. I know it's not their fault I'm an idiot, but why the **** are you allowed to opt out of self exclusions 24 hours after you exclude yourself?! A month long ban should be a month long ban.
Oh well too tired and happy to care. It's 8 am here and I finished a bottle of rum while playing
Time for another long extended break from gambling... I hate online poker now anyways, the fun has been sucked out of it imo from all these solvers and ****. Maybe I just suck