Degen Stories....
07-15-2011
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, 01:53 PM
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Came down here may 30th... I leave this wednesday July 13th.
Lost 43k. About half my bankroll. I am retired from poker forever.
Didn't even play that big... 5/10 NL and 40/80 limit (one session of 10/25 NL at rio only because game was extremely good). Lost almost every single day. I went from being devestated, to determined, back to devestated.. then took a bunch of days off, tried to comeback in a very clean sharp manner, staying in positive mood and mindset and not thinking about how much I was losing, just playing every hand as best I can...
It never ended.... I've been playing this game for 4 years and every single year it is an extreme struggle.... always is. I never ever considered myself even remotely lucky, Always grinded out through the most stressful times and came out ahead...
This year its different. I cannot win. Everything I know about odds just means nothing, the term EV seems laughable. I reached my breaking point last night when I was lying on the bathroom floor almost in tears. I don't care about money anymore, I'm not gonna let this game ruin my life. There is a lot of beautiful things in this world and this "game" is really not one of them.
I dunno how much of a degen story this really is but I sure feel like one. And I don't like it one bit.
highlights:
c/raising Jd9d on QdTd7c .... having the original better fold a queen, and having the button caller backraise shove 3c3s, running it twice and losing them both for 6k.
all in on flop with TT on a J43 rainbow board against 24 and losing to a river 2 for 9k. one orbit later all in on flop with AhAd on a Ks4h7s against AsJs and losing to a river 8s for 12.8k (both of these were the rio 10/25 game).
had set over set 4 times in the first 10 days or so.... 3s, 4s and 5s, all lost to 7s, then 6s to As. All of them were completely standard, the one set of 3s vs 7s I thought I could have just called the river instead of raise, but I went over that hand with my friends and they think the river raise is fine. Oh and had TT vs 77 on a T9775 board too. Thats my happy set over over set story when I had top set. NL is ****ed in the sense that if you run bad on all the very big all-in pots you play, you get so utterly decimated.
I think I could proooobably make all this money back but I don't want to. To think I could run this bad again at any given time down the road, has inspired me to retire forever. I am also probably not good enough to detach myself from what is happening. I just can't help but feel like I am "owed" something after running bad in every single big pot, and obviously thats such a fallacy to think this way... and the longer and the more frequent I run below EV the more I feel I'm owed.
I don't know what I lose first, my bankroll or my sanity ? they go down equally at the same I think.
Lost 43k. About half my bankroll. I am retired from poker forever.
Didn't even play that big... 5/10 NL and 40/80 limit (one session of 10/25 NL at rio only because game was extremely good). Lost almost every single day. I went from being devestated, to determined, back to devestated.. then took a bunch of days off, tried to comeback in a very clean sharp manner, staying in positive mood and mindset and not thinking about how much I was losing, just playing every hand as best I can...
It never ended.... I've been playing this game for 4 years and every single year it is an extreme struggle.... always is. I never ever considered myself even remotely lucky, Always grinded out through the most stressful times and came out ahead...
This year its different. I cannot win. Everything I know about odds just means nothing, the term EV seems laughable. I reached my breaking point last night when I was lying on the bathroom floor almost in tears. I don't care about money anymore, I'm not gonna let this game ruin my life. There is a lot of beautiful things in this world and this "game" is really not one of them.
I dunno how much of a degen story this really is but I sure feel like one. And I don't like it one bit.
highlights:
c/raising Jd9d on QdTd7c .... having the original better fold a queen, and having the button caller backraise shove 3c3s, running it twice and losing them both for 6k.
all in on flop with TT on a J43 rainbow board against 24 and losing to a river 2 for 9k. one orbit later all in on flop with AhAd on a Ks4h7s against AsJs and losing to a river 8s for 12.8k (both of these were the rio 10/25 game).
had set over set 4 times in the first 10 days or so.... 3s, 4s and 5s, all lost to 7s, then 6s to As. All of them were completely standard, the one set of 3s vs 7s I thought I could have just called the river instead of raise, but I went over that hand with my friends and they think the river raise is fine. Oh and had TT vs 77 on a T9775 board too. Thats my happy set over over set story when I had top set. NL is ****ed in the sense that if you run bad on all the very big all-in pots you play, you get so utterly decimated.
I think I could proooobably make all this money back but I don't want to. To think I could run this bad again at any given time down the road, has inspired me to retire forever. I am also probably not good enough to detach myself from what is happening. I just can't help but feel like I am "owed" something after running bad in every single big pot, and obviously thats such a fallacy to think this way... and the longer and the more frequent I run below EV the more I feel I'm owed.
I don't know what I lose first, my bankroll or my sanity ? they go down equally at the same I think.
- if you stop playing before all your money is gone
- if you get it in with OESFD+Overcards vs 2nd nut low underpair and run it TWICE (HH made me lol btw).
Stop derailing this thread, it´s just not for you.
07-19-2011
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