you should look up his VERY interessting ptr http://www.pokertableratings.com/ipo...earch/nawtnawt first!

and im sure that i never played a single hand with that guy.
i really dont understand why people who i never met/playedTalked to would write such bs about me but whatever...

Crazy this is how it always happens, just one day you lose everything. It's like there is a ebb n flow to randomness.

i feel for you man, i hope you find strength to carry on...

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There. I fixed it.

lol @ career peak

Op, what possessed you to play so high when you only had 60k to your name. Have you ever won on any site?

OP if you ever play again, try folding a hand now and again.

This is nice

Still OP, man up and blame yourself for this.

Wow OP I feel bad for you
Now go see GA and stop poker once and for all.

at least u didnt lose 1 mirron dorrars

i wrote it in the op already, i knew i dont have so much self control to let 60K lay on the net without playing when on a downswing. i was 100% aware of that...
after the message arrived that the $ is still online i was driving around in my car for 6 hours, doing all kind of stuff, gym, going out etc.etc. the whole day to keep me from playing.
I then thought this is bullsht and im agrown man and so on ..

i just knew im addicted to this sht and i think im a good enough player to beat these players - this mixture is way too dangerous in a cruel game like poker.

i run pretty well at 10KNL 6max lately so i knew 20KNL is no big deal even tho it was all the same players.

i was playing my best game at 10KNL, absolutely focused and spot on.

the hands on ptr are all showdown hands so it doesnt say too much about how i actually played the sessions in general. i made outstanding plays that u will never get to see, but that clearly isnt my point here

what happened yesterday was just something i couldnt explain ........

i mean look at these hands ...how i played them, it feels like it wasnt me playing there....

and it wasnt just 20KNL! after i droped 30K there i lost heaps at 10KNL and 5KNL also..... just playing lol bad being completely off tilt control

yes i obv won a lot before in other formats and i still got a little left but nothing near 60K




im felling so fkd up right now... i was laying around in my appartment all day, not answering one phone call, eating nothing barely moving, staring at the empty computer screen.
i told myself i had to get up and do something so i hit the gym where a absolute hottie wich i met there before tryed to talk to me.
but i must have looked like a completely depressed fool all the time.
couldnt think about nothing else then how ******ed i am and that my live has changed from one day to another. not a very intersting conversation ether since i barely said a word...

obv i denied to go out with her in my depressed self destructive condition and prefer to meet a friend later who is a poker mind so i can finally talk about all this sht to someone that understands where im coming from...

anyway im suprised for the few hate i get here thought u guys will go harder on me

ill stick to my plan to change the game completely and become a mtt grinder for a while with a tiny roll alowing me to play the $100 and sunday majors.

obv im bound to fail but im way too much into poker to just let go.
and cash game are out of question since i just cant play medium/low limits with my current state of mind

Your one sickening degen.

It is so sickening. Look on the bright side, at least you played with the big boys. Many of us only dream of doing it

you are probably right, but now it doesnt make any sense.

I have nothing to lose.

If i would never have played poker i would have never had so much money to my name EVER!

man, i didnt lost because they where too big for me

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No you lost cause you never actually won anything. Pretty sure most winning regs have that as a key trait.

But how many people were in the queue?

I asked myself- how does someone like this make 60k at poker. Then I got my answer-

this



is why you will never be a successful gambler, give it up man or you will busto over and over imo. do you think magically you will just wake up and learn how to manage a bankroll and your tilt problem?

They may have taken all your monies but they shouldn't take away your dreams, lol

lol, degens gonna degen

gl anyway OP

Based on what you're saying about your finances I can't imagine you're even close to being rolled for these level tournaments.

wtf op i looked at some hands and especially the A3 hand lol what were you doing?

you do realize the game was just running because you were in it,right?