Hey guys. It's been a while.
I was not writing, partially cuz i was wasted and partially cuz i was ashamed.
I literally blew my 1,3k$ bankroll, while drunk and high playing 100 NL, while spending all my real-life money on beer and weed.
If You want to hear the story, i'll tell You how it all begun.
So i went back to my parents house, a month before christmass, and set up a grinding station.
I decided i will break thro and study here.
But i undervalued power of old habits.
I met up with my ex-gf, who is in deep-love-selfies-together-on-facebook style relationship now.
Aaaaand since she always was faithfull i bought a bottle of whiskey for our meeting.
It turned out to be unnesesery, we hooked up and bought few G of weed for incoming days.
So, looking at it now it was huge mistake, but i just really missed getting laid, and damn she's hot.
So ,that was first week.
The problem started when i didn't stop that for another month, and i missed poker so much (i wasn't playing it cuz of my state) i started playing wasted.
I actually did pritty much on 100 NL, till i blew 650 BB's on 1 hand and went nuts. (i am ******ed sometimes).
But i learned alot. I can't trust my old instints.
After that, i had alot of storys i'll post here in upcoming days, if i'll remmember em good.
I got my **** together last week, and i'm slowly playing again. I got last 150$ so i backed off to 5 NL, (after playing 100 NL and taking 200$ pots it has hurted me, but it's nessesery).
Also, what is funny, i did not drink on parties (difrence for new years eve, but i took so much extasy it was no difrence drinking or not).
I drank all of that while playing my favorite game (whith i got to quit, cuz it is ruining my life) DotA 2. It always been in my life as number one value, and after i got laid with my old GF , and playd one dota (she liked to watch) i finished up sending her home and playing 24 hours straight.
But as You can see i'm sober, standing my ground and back on right way.
Even if it will take me another whole year, i'll stay sober, go out alot (sober and pick up girls so i won't be in such need 4 sex) and grind 5 NL untill i got 40 BI bankroll and adve0nce up.
I got books, laptop , like 20$ in my pocket ,150$ on stars and chair worth about 500-600$. It's better than it was in January 02 last year, so hey, i'm progressing. Atleast i got a chair and laptop
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I'll include some pictures.
Also, to guys comparing my eating left-overs with banging fat chicks - are You nuts?
I'm a degenerate so i don't really care about stuff like showering, or being moral, but all of these is becease i chase pleasure. banging fat ****ing chick is not pleasant at all -.0
So, happy 2015 , and here is my goal list :
1.Score a 3-some.
2.Make living playing 50 NL.
3.Don't get job.
4.Go out atleast 100 times this year and don't drink single night out.
Cheers guys. As i said i'll post more of things that happen in betwen me having 3k$ and going broke.
PS. I actually love the chair im sitting on, and that year was worth it, even if it was only for chair.
Bartosz.