So i'm getting better everyday. and thats good. My stamina increase as i challenge myself to do 2k hands sessions and keep focussedl. Hopefully by the end of the month i'll be able to do 2x 2k hands a day, and grind Platinum Star by the end of 11.14
Also as i got poker couch already, the guy is great and improved my winrate (i spend money i win paying him, so i might go busto soon but i don't care, as long as i get better in poker)
Thats how my month looks so far


Now it looks allright, i was running pritty cold lately getting sucked out many times, it does not even bother me as it is only opportunity to challenge my mental game, and i win with myself on this, yet i believe i do ******ed stuff.
I am not sure, how to fix those leaks - but i am sure i can.
Here i'll post the leaks i'm talking about.
PokerStars - $0.25 NL FAST - Holdem - 9 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

BTN: 113.04 BB (VPIP: 21.43, PFR: 19.64, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 56)
SB: 71.52 BB (VPIP: 28.57, PFR: 0.00, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 7)
BB: 183.12 BB (VPIP: 16.34, PFR: 12.45, 3Bet Preflop: 5.56, Hands: 260)
UTG: 62.16 BB (VPIP: 0.00, PFR: 0.00, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 2)
UTG+1: 78.52 BB (VPIP: 12.94, PFR: 9.41, 3Bet Preflop: 2.63, Hands: 86)
MP: 149.24 BB (VPIP: 9.62, PFR: 6.44, 3Bet Preflop: 2.53, Hands: 1,207)
MP+1: 159.4 BB (VPIP: 15.68, PFR: 12.12, 3Bet Preflop: 3.41, Hands: 1,076)
MP+2: 54.4 BB (VPIP: 10.00, PFR: 10.00, 3Bet Preflop: 7.14, Hands: 41)
Hero (CO): 107.72 BB

SB posts SB 0.4 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB

Pre Flop: (pot: 1.4 BB) Hero has 4 A

fold, fold, fold, MP+1 raises to 3 BB, fold, Hero raises to 9 BB, fold, fold, fold, MP+1 raises to 23.2 BB, Hero calls 14.2 BB

Flop: (47.8 BB, 2 players) 3 T A
MP+1 bets 24.4 BB, Hero calls 24.4 BB

Turn: (96.6 BB, 2 players) 7
MP+1 bets 61.8 BB, Hero calls 60.12 BB and is all-in

River: (216.84 BB, 2 players) Q



PokerStars - $0.25 NL FAST - Holdem - 9 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

BTN: 106.48 BB (VPIP: 39.29, PFR: 3.57, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 29)
SB: 162 BB (VPIP: 13.38, PFR: 10.19, 3Bet Preflop: 4.10, Hands: 317)
BB: 114.36 BB (VPIP: 10.13, PFR: 8.86, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 79)
UTG: 221.84 BB (VPIP: 12.82, PFR: 11.54, 3Bet Preflop: 5.00, Hands: 79)
UTG+1: 101.4 BB (VPIP: 13.43, PFR: 7.46, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 135)
MP: 103 BB (VPIP: 18.92, PFR: 14.19, 3Bet Preflop: 7.69, Hands: 149)
MP+1: 98.6 BB (VPIP: 11.90, PFR: 7.14, 3Bet Preflop: 3.23, Hands: 84)
MP+2: 82.72 BB (VPIP: 20.00, PFR: 10.00, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 10)
Hero (CO): 157 BB

SB posts SB 0.4 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB

Pre Flop: (pot: 1.4 BB) Hero has 7 7

fold, fold, fold, fold, fold, Hero raises to 3 BB, BTN calls 3 BB, fold, BB raises to 14 BB, Hero calls 11 BB, fold

Flop: (31.4 BB, 2 players) 8 A T
BB bets 20 BB, Hero raises to 40 BB, BB calls 20 BB

Turn: (111.4 BB, 2 players) T
BB checks, Hero bets 103 BB and is all-in, BB calls 60.36 BB and is all-in

River: (232.12 BB, 2 players) 3



My work ethis are getting better evereyday, i think i might keep my job (cuz i suck at cleaning, but i am improving) till january, and that would give me enought time to pwn at 25 NL (like CRUSH) or even win at 50.
For now my biggest problem is cutting those (posted above) leaks.
As i got poker coach already i might need a psychologisy or psychiatrist for this, as honestly i got problems answering big questions like "why the **** do i do this?"
Thats my vent for today, and may the variation be with You guys
Cheers, Bartosz.

Also, i feel like venting a lil more - cuz lately i got a new neighbour.
This guy smoke those legal drugs, research chemicals all the time and is pritty much killing me with the smell.
He wakes up at 5 am to smoke, goes sleep about 2 am smoking whole joint in his room before.
I can smell that, as it smells so ****ing bad that if someone would take a **** on the worst kind of cigarettes it would smell like perfumes compared to that.
Variation was strong for me, as hes room is like 10 M from mine, and we don't share bathroom.(He's scared of washing machine for workers, so he wash his clothes in bathroom while smoking ofcourse)
So for now it's pritty funny, as he continues to kill us with his lines like
"Dude what is this thing ur smoking?"
And he's GOLD answer
"Now listen, people know there are those smart shops with legal drugs, but not many know what it is or how it is done "- he begins - "As i know, becease i make them myself"
"I do not buy the made ones, you know, becease thats some bad ****, like , would You give it to ur son?" - He was dead serious about last one - " As i would not, even tho i know my son gonna snort lines i will prepare best ones for him"
Thats the point i lost it.
I literally couldn't stop laughting at that, like what the **** guys...
Kay, thats all for venting for today.
Just had to share that story, as this guy is SOO degenerated it's killing me...

aren't these the types of hands you should be talking to your couch about?

Honestly, those hands are plain stupid.
I mean i could not expect the guy to bet anythink less than AK, or to fold anything playd that way (the one i went all in).
I can see my mistakes clearly, yet from time to time i just go into rambo-mode and jump with my all-in bets in ******ed fashion.

So i checked some Jared Tendlers work, and i realized that my tilting only showes me what is not mastered in my game and that is :
I am 3-betting WAYYY to light when i'm not focusing (i'm talking here i 3-bet 35s vs UTG raise, just berceuse it's suited)
I run too many 3-barrel bluffs.
I refuse to analyze the worst hands. Like i would be ashame of them before myself.
So now i gonna count the ammount of Galfond Dolars that i lost on these hands .
Sevens first
I open and got 3-bet by NIT 10/9 that has not 3-bet any hand in last 31 occasions.
Let's try to put him on range, pritty wide here : 99+,AQs+,AK
And thats optymistic I'm 31% dog versus that range.
I got to call 2,75$ to win 7,85$.
This hand is prefloop fold as
1. I got not much read from this guy, therefore i can not plan hand ahead good.
2. I got 31% equity, and i need 33 for profitable call.
3. I got other villain behind me.
Now i call and flop gives meee
11% equity versus that range.
Even given how wide and optimistic his range is assumed here, the only hands that missed and are going to fold are :
QQ,KK,JJ,99
And let's assume he'll play them ALL this way, every time. (and i believe he would check fold most of those about 80%)
24/68 folds
Let's assume they'll all fold to my minimal 10$ barrel on flop (even tho he has to have 18% equity and is not folding KK here)
I need 0,45% to be break-even with that move.
I got 0,35% with most optimistic assumptions ever.
If those assumptions were true, flop raise would be -EV.
But they are not. Let's put some more realistic assumptions.
He'll bet KK and call, Bet and fold QQ,JJ, and just check-fold 99.
12/62 folds now - about 19%.
Now to be honest this is possible that he might take that line, but more propable is check-calling QQ,KK,JJ, check folding 99 and betting here all his value hands.
VS that line my equity is next to 11, with my two outers against AK/AQ, and my fold equity is about 0.
So if he has TT,AA,AK,AQs+ and just calls i lose
-10$ + 0,04*0,7*58$=-8,9$+1,62$ = -7,28$ ( the + is for 4% chance i spike my 7 and i have 70% equity versus that range, and ofcourse i assume he'll get all in anyway)
Now the funny part is turn.
We can be pritty sure his fold EQ on turn is low.Lets assume for second he bet-calls kings there and folds them to shove on river.
4/50 combos fold to my river shove, that gives my bluff 8% succes chance.In all-in situation i'm 3,5% underdog.
Soo by putting 15.09 into 26,85 pot i lose :
-15,09$ +0,08*26,85+0,035*58,03=-15,09$+2,14$+2,03$=-10,92$
Funny part is that checking would give me +2,03$ EV here.
Also, lesson that i took from it is the min-raise on flop to get free card.
In this particular example it stopped aggresion from strong hand, and with more % equity it might be worth it.
If we would compare just calling to min-raising (given we're trying to hit seven) raising is better option here.
So that was just reckless play and i lost sum of about 18$-19$ G-bucks even taking a little unrealistic, yet possible, assumptions.
Cheers, Bartosz.

ehhhh. I'm drunk
I don';t want to be degen anymre
Wyy
i literally cried on my way back home from aprtl.
not becease i did bad i pritty much did as always everytime i got drunk, dance, chat chicks, chat bros etc
i dodn't get into a fight this time
yet i feel really bad
i wanted to escape this
ehhh
i;'m going ****ing abstitnent **** this
liske literally

Chin up and chip up, bro. Tomorrow is a brighter day.

o **** drunk posting -- cut cut time :P

kos gl with your cause!

Who let this guy into college?

Meh

Allright.
I know what i got to do
I dedicate this month to
1. Working as many over-hours as i can, to support my future poker carier.
2. Fixing my mental leaks :

Getting to play in the zone, finding any tricks, tips or things to maintain that state - as i found that when i am in zone i do not bluff senslessly (and thats how i maintain break even /small winrate even tho busting BI after BI)
I'll get my room covered in graphs, reminders, hand charts and motivational ****, so i will always have the grind on mind.
On last day of this month i'll create a PG&C thread tittled " Going platinum star, 1k$ profit 11.2014 "
Thats gonna be one tought challenge, but if i manage to nail it - i'll go for Supernova 2015!
Thats so far for now.
About my last posts - i recently find myself getting very mad at myself for doing anything expect poker, and activities like drinking are at top of my "get mad" list, so when i get more impulsie (as drunk) i tend to write that kind of bull****.
@Island Guy
And why not ? I was perfect student, with the small learning issues tho, friendly, chatty, party-loving drinker-smoker. I was just what college needed.
But now i'm on hard path of profesional mental sport, and i am not willing to quit untill i succed.
Cheers Guys, i'll post something about mental game, as soon as i dig in and find the ways to fix the performance thing
Bartosz

My biggest leak as well. If I can stop doing this I can crush. It is cool to hear you talk about winners tilt. I get that. Too comfortable and overconfident. It scares me that I can make dumb moves like that and I know it is the biggest hurdle in the way of me crushing.

Any ideas on how to deal with this? Like, other than smoking rocks or whatever cuz thats not my thing. But like some mental state or mantra or something.

Thanks! GL OP!!

edit

And no offense about college joke. I am on a similar path as you right now.

da fuq

Positive thinking bro,,,,,,,,,,,,, but no wtf do you need join some cult as this threads is scary

never go full ******

I take it back, pot smoke next door made me lol

hope you move up the stakes and win ya flips

@IslandGuy
http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/17.../#post45050415
I stated steps that i'm going to take in order to fix my mental game leaks.
I think You could try them, aswell as
1. Reducing volume
2. Increasing psychical exercise ammount.
3. Regularly venting at 2+2.
Also - keep track of how Your mental game change, in what places You still do mistake and in whith You do not tilt anymore.
It's both motivating and helpfull.
@1st down all in.
The thing is this guy does not smoke pot. He buys some chemicals, and god damn it blazes his brain. I sold him my old laptop, and he deleted hidden files on C drive cuz, as he stated, ''thats where all the viruses hide, i was going to increase computer speed 10x'' and now it doesn't work anymore lol......
It's just one of things he does on daily basis, and it literally starts to kill me (that + ammount of bull**** stories he gives, and the confidence he has behind)
Cheers, Bartosz.

Allright - i just lost my job ;D
Also - my game is still getting better, i think i will pull of the ---> LIVING FROM POKER <--- by 2015!
Now, as i posses a laptop, a big ammount of money (Story on it incoming) and my head is full of fun ideas (like going london and living of LS live games) my life is on the right track
I latelly playd drunk poker with a guy that lives next to me, and, as he sayd : 'he doesn't like folding'.
So, we had enourmus amounts of fun, throwing coins, doing black/red bets for flops, and betting on what kind of card will be up when we throw deck at celing, aswell as consuming enourmus ammounts of whiskey and rum, i'm about 200-300 pounds ahead (like two weeks paycheck).
That, combined with fact i lived cheap, took overs, saved money, and lately ran hot in Online Poker (about 450$ in there) makes me think i can do it!
Gonna keep upgrading myself, cheers guys!
Bartosz

Allright - i'm going back to Poland, where i will be living for saved money and studying poker deeper. My MOTP 1 and 2 just arrived, gonna read them ASAP, and for now two last days of work.
Then i head to London to hit the Casinos, friday night should be fishy enought for me to stack someone i hope, cuz i got 1 and a half day in London and god damn most of it i wanna spend on Hold'Em!
Cheers, Bartosz.
PS i'll post graph of my previous month.
seeing it i must agree i had luck yet i sucked. Yet i'm not giving up. This month is going to be better!

Funny thing is as my SD winning went down my non SD winnings went up...... interesting thing

You've become predictable to your villains and they lay it down when you have a hand (thus your non-showdown winrate goes up) and they call you down when you're betting weak/you call down your opponents when they have made hands (thus your showdown win rate went down).

Not interesting, not difficult to grasp. Their HUD's probably have you marked up so well your villains have your range pegged from every position you bet from at the table (button, cutoff, bb, etc.).

Make adjustments or you're going to go busto no matter how much you study abc strategies.

I play ZOOM and most of my villains have max 200 hands on me. Also my play changes everyday. I mean seriously, i am improving my opening vs specific villain ranges, c-bet textures, fish isolating etc everyday. Also, You think people on NL25 are THAT good on analyzing others regs? If so (as i started playing table games this month) i must work way harder than i do. As playing normal tables i realized it's way more fun , way more reads and funny dynamics. Fishes swim by sometimes, and for first time in my life i table -select (shame on me i know, to TS on 25 NL but i need some results to boost confidence)
Also, Do You think that the SDwins and NSDwins should go so far away from each other? I mean in diffrent directions ? or i just got big leaks in few strat parts?
Cheers, Bartosz..

1. Good to see improvements and variants in your game.
2.not very hard for villains to use a heads up display and play you robotically against you based on information displayed. I would figure most multi-tabling low limit players would play based on their hud alone seeing as most would not be good enough to play without it.
3.yes, your graph suggest leaks when you have either SD or non SD win rate in the -.

So that means i :
1. Bluff in bad spots -> then release to raise.
2. Play too pasively therefore not getting fEQ in right spots.

Gonna have it in mind.
Also -->I'm using HUD aswell but i can not pin down people (even with 500 hands) to their exact ranges. Is there any tutorial on doing that, or that was exageration?

Good updates. keep working hard and improving