brief update on my former student...
after being on the run from police for 4+ days, the girl who shot her turned herself in today escorted by a lawyer.
calling hours/funeral tomorrow. her step mom called me this morning to ask how i would describe her, wanting a non-family member's views. she woke me up so i asked for a couple minutes and i'd text her. when i sent my thoughts, she immediately called me back and i already knew (dreaded) what she was going to ask...wanted to know if i'd very briefly speak at the funeral tomorrow. when i put even a minute's worth of effort into writing something, i can be pretty eloquent/convincing i guess.
i told her that i wouldn't tell her no, but i'd really rather not. i know people think that teachers talk in front of people for a living, but that type of thing is terrifying to me. i had to read a letter my cousin wrote (he's stationed in hawaii and couldn't make it back) to my grandfather at his calling hours last november and barely made it through it.
no way a) i wouldn't be a nervous mess the rest of today and tomorrow if i had to speak, and b) would i make it through it without choking up. reading how i felt about a beloved student who just was killed months after turning 18 in front of a hundred or two people...there's no ****ing way i'd get through that.
i ended up speaking with the pastor they'll have there. i talked to him and her dad/step-mom for 15 minutes about her, and told the pastor if he wanted to read verbatim what i texted that was fine by me. i guess we left it as a 'play it by ear' type of thing. i am pretty sure i'm a pall bearer.
at this point, the thing that i'm most pissed about is the police/media response. i knew who shot her hours after it happened. that girl has been on the run/in hiding for 4+ days now, and only just turned herself in a few hours ago...accompanied by a lawyer.
if that girl was nervous/worried enough about her involvement to go into hiding for almost 5 days, and only turn herself in to the police after she had contacted a lawyer (which, okay, if it was my daughter i'd advise her to do the same), and the police/newspapers have said literally NOTHING about a possible murderer or at the very least a person that shot her friend accidentally and then ran and hid for the entire weekend...ugh.
you'd think that's a public safety thing. the girl isn't a minor, put her face and name in an article and on tv and call her a 'person of interest' if you don't want to call her a suspect.
as it is, i'm at least thankful that the police have her (or at least had her. i have no idea if she was released or not) and hopefully the family can get through tomorrow and begin the healing process.
really sad ****.
i know i said i wouldn't bring it up again, but the turning yourself in after 5 days with a lawyer thing really has me rustled. let's say i was drunk (not really abnormal) and let's say i was playing with a gun (not really abnormal, though when drinking they stay put away) and legitimately accidentally shot a friend....you think my first thought/response would be to GTFO, go into hiding, and only show up 5 days later with a lawyer? **** no. i'd be doing everything possible to get him/her to a hospital. to make sure my mistake didn't cost them their life. ****, i know having a lawyer to speak for me would be the best way to deal with the legal issues but i'd be so distraught that whenever the police did come to the hospital they'd get the entire story right then and there and i'd deal with whatever came from my actions.
anyway, i don't pray and i'm sure a lot of you all don't either, but this is weighing pretty heavily on a lot of people's hearts...
Last edited by tuq; 08-07-2013 at 08:26 PM.