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Originally Posted by goofyballer
Ok, so we basically just agreed with each other, but if that's the case that's not what Geddy represented to us - he was like "I'm over her", when really if he was completely over her banging her would have been no prob and left no strings attached and been a great night. It's if he isn't really over her that complications arise.
You're my emo brother in here but I really disagree. My worst sexual experiences have all been a result of them being meaningless. This isn't to say I don't enjoy sex outside of monogamous relationships - I certainly do - but it's on my terms and it satisfies an established objective. So I dispute the claim that it would've been great when I'm clearly not into her anymore. I mean, I'm interested in every girl I hook up with to a varying degree; to essentially bang a girl out of spite, or just 'cause, well it just isn't in my playbook...and when I've tried to call that audible, it's been awful.
I extol her best virtues itt but there's a dark side of her I haven't really discussed either. She can be very selfish and remarkably insensitive to others left in her wake. She looks out for #1 and can be incredibly impersonal. Basically, she's uncompromising in her desire to do things on her terms and her terms alone. I still think the positives outweighed the negatives but she was far from an angel. As a friend, it was tolerable. As a friend who was falling for her, it was frustrating. As a hopelessly lovesick fool, it was devastating.
I highly doubt I was going to fall for her all over again if we ended up in bed together. I can be sappy but I'm realistic - she's leaving for good and there's nothing more to it than that. I just think the biggest issue was that if she had her way, she wins. Basically, it would've been vindication for her that no matter what, no matter how I was treated, she could still pull me in and get what she wants.
This is the most appropriate analogy I can think of: She initiated a lockout and assumed I'd be back when the new CBA got signed, because she's never had a reason to believe otherwise. But instead of running back to her when the doors opened again, I decided to take my entertainment dollar elsewhere.