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Originally Posted by Deldar182
The oracle has spoken...
nas says:
when you're four years in the game, we can have a conversation,
eight years in the game, i'll invite you on vacation,
ten years in the game, after i've enjoyed my fame, only then i'll let you pick my brain...
luckily for you phil doesn't follow that credo. can't get much better advice in this thread than what jman posted.
i'll throw my 2c in. to me it sounds like your fear of people/going outside is a MUCH MUCH bigger obstacle than your poker game ATM. i would do everything in your power (pills, psychologists, etc.) to conquer that fear--so much of what's good about life posted in this thread depends on you getting over interactions/outdoor spaces, etc.
its mind-boggling to me that you would even consider NOT going back to school. there are so many positive benefits and you're still young enough to make it worthwhile. i would not trade my college experience for $10M (the education, the interaction with other smart, young, interesting people, the parties, the extracurricular activities, the clubs, etc.). It's so so so worthwhile. And you can still be a boss and do school at the same time, IMO.
But it seems, like Phil said, you are so far from even being able to consider doing that that it's best just to concentrate on baby steps.
One thing that I haven't seen mentioned heavily that you can do immediately is read. Read whatever interests you, fiction, non-fiction, anything that will challenge you and hold your attention. You can lose yourself in books, and improve your mind in ways that you might not be able to do right now given your psychological issues.
One last thing that could help you kill two (fear of people, poker) birds with one stone is setting up a home game (for low stakes can be like $5 dollar buy in or w/e) with your friends. Play a SNG, play goofy games, play whatever, just have fun playing the game and remember how beautiful of a game it is. Seems like it might help you get out of your funk and also you can hang out with friends to boot.
Anyways, gl, and see you at the tables sometime soon.
dlpnyc21