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Originally Posted by dochol31
Given your current mental condition, suicide attempts, history of gambling addiction and financial status, poker really is the last thing you need in your life.
Being around happy people, eating healthily, getting regular/hard exercise, and getting some meaningful work that helps others is much more likely to bring you joy than playing an addictive, zero-sum game.
Thailand is a beautiful country with plenty of opportunity to teach English and live a good life-style. My recommendation is get a visa to teach English, join a Thai-boxing gym and become a beast (can even have some fights which is way more exciting than poker), date some women you meet or join a dating site, book some Thai language lessons, and enjoy one of the most beautiful cultures on the planet.
Some adventure in your life might be what you're looking for, and poker is a cheap replacement for that.
Tip: Stay away from bar-girls + drugs and keep your wits about you when dating, all the horror stories seem to come from tourists who go there to exploit the working girls or do something stupid when high. I lived there for 2 years and never had any trouble.
Thanks so much for taking the time out to give me some advice, it's all very solid. I know poker isn't healthy for me and isn't going to serve me being happy but I'm an addict so unfortunately will continue! I still live under what is probably a delusion that I can make it work.
I actually joined a muay Thai gym for a month in Thailand a couple of years ago and it was probably the happiest I've been in years; it was a place called Team Quest in Chiang Mai. It's also easy to be social when you've got likeminded people doing similar things to you. I'll be careful if/when I move to Thailand and don't really see myself getting into too much trouble.
On a positive note I stuck to 10PLO and grinded up 40 buy ins yesterday playing pretty much all day and night. My bankroll is sitting at $450. I'm hoping I can stay disciplined and stick to bankroll management, I'm planning to put in another marathon session. I would love to be living in Thailand, working out while grinding poker successfully. Thanks again for the input!