Hi I want to date a girl because I feel lonely and I have no friends.From school to highschool I used drugs,nicotine,tobacco on myself because I had no way to make a connection with someone.My dad always beated me and I was very weak and couldn't draw a circle or other things.I went to the gym but no one cheered me up and I wanted to commit suicide.
I know this sounds insane but how do I get a girlfriend?What do I tell her?
I mean in college no girl would look at me because I don't have this psychological way of confessing that I love someone and neither I have this emotion in me for that.
2 years ago I pressed the heart meridian with my own finger on the heart because I felt like that guy from Hokuto no Ken Souther and Kaioh.I want to find love.
Where can I find it?
As someone who is now old who felt similar to you when I was young, I have two bits of advice for you:
1) Concentrate on your job/skill/sport/game/art. Whatever it is that excites you, that makes you want to get up in the morning. Don't worry about romantic attachments right now. They will happen when they happen, sometimes in the most surprising ways. Work at something you are passionate at, and THAT will make you attractive to girls.
2) When you do find yourself dating someone, realize that she is just a normal person. As ****ed up as anyone else. Treat the girl like a human first, and a girl second. Girls are a lot more than what they look like, or a simple sex partner. I know this sounds obvious, but many men do not treat women like a normal person, they instead put them on a pedestal and therefore become disappointed when that girl does not obviously live up to that ridiculousness.