Do you see how that might not be healthy or productive to your mental well-being ?

By the way wellbutyrin is an incredible drug and I would be amazed if I didn't help you at least a little bit

Oh ok. Totally justified then, I didn't realize it was "months of frustration". Carry on!

So go for a run after work. Set an achievable goal, attempt to achieve. Rinse /repeat.

DZ is indeed terrible but that's why everyone ignores him. You can ignore terrible things, with or without help from the site.

You are unclear on the technical definition of histrionic (as it applies to psychology) if you truly believe you do not (or rarely) exhibit this trait. You've had plenty of histrionic outbursts on this site, going back years now.

You are correct that everyone has certain levels of personality traits on scales like antisocial, histrionic, etc. However, most people do not exhibit these traits to a level where it interferes significantly with interpersonal and everyday functioning.

She would argue that her life is awesome and everyone loves her so idk if that's the best thing to bring up with her

Yeah, she's a cauldron of rainbows and puppies.

M,

You were contained because you repeatedly derailed thread after thread bringing up your personal issues.

There was some degree of support building to give uncontainment a try. Then in the midst of that discussion you purposefully broke the rules to post in the donation thread. Obviously a nice gesture, but nonetheless not following rules. Still, I and others lobbied to not punish you for donating to charity. Then you blow up the BPD thread with your same old repeated issues with code.

That's why you're contained, not some mod vendetta against you.

How's the sex addiction 12-step program going?

Ok, so what do those percentages mean? What is 75% on a sliding scale of crazy? Do normal functioning ppl score 50% on those test? What's normal and how far off from getting to normal am I?

M,


These are things to discuss with professionals focusing on your well-being, not OOT or well-intentioned sensitive guy friends.

there's a forum below OOT called 'EDF' that might be more receptive to this saga

MLY a couple things

1: You are contained because you literally turn every thread you touch into a MLY thread. After uncontaining you once, you needed to be recontained because you literally can't help yourself.

2: Some contained posters in the past have gotten along fine by quoting other threads and posting their responses in the containment thread. I suggest you maybe try that.


Unfortunately you will probably just ignore all the advice you just got from others in this thread for the billionth time and just tailspin into bolivia.

Ok, I get it. But, I hadn't posted about my personal issues in quit some time when I was contained. I know that I did before and took over threads with the nonsense, but I had been posting just normal stuff and other posters were making comments and bringing up old stuff., And, my posting in the BPD thread was directly on topic.....yeah, I can see how I made it too personal and I shouldn't have been posting in the mental state I was in and I was just repeating the same old crap.
What is your take on Larry wanting to exile me for breaking containment?

I dropped out. Sex is an awesome, natural, healthy drug and everyone should be addicted to it and reap the benefits!

good lord you are actually hopeless

LOL

M,

Based on your upbringing and behavior those test scores are not surprising at all, especially the BPD and Avoidant parts coupled with your upbringing.

tailspin into bolivian LOL A+

Thank you Tuma!

M,

Professionals tell you that for you to get better:

You should end your relationship with code.

You should attend a sex addiction program.

You refuse to follow the advice of mental health professionals and then ask why you aren't getting better and the same outcomes keep repeating when you continue performing the same behaviors.

If you really want to get better, follow the advice you get from mental health professionals. You've tried deciding on your own what's best for you and it clearly hasn't worked. It's up to you whether or not you really want to give a different approach a try, or keep doing everything your way and having the same outcomes.

MLYLT,

You do remember about a hundred posters immediately telling Larry that his idea was really dumb after he posted that, right? You're not walking around thinking your silly "100 negative to 1 positive" comment is true in this case, right?

Right?

I was asking EL D is take in reference to his "mod vindetta" comment.

I saw that everyone said it was dumb and I appreciate that.

*vendetta

edit: It would be really disturbing for me if ElD had written vindetta.

MLYLT,

What does Larry's dumb idea of an OOT exile have to to with you being contained and you getting temp banned for breaking containment yet again? Those things have nothing to do with any "mod vendetta".

MLY, web surveys are dumb and not to be taken too seriously. Your "avoidant" score seems odd, but if you don't think you have histrionic tendencies, well, that's certainly not the impressions others here have of you. For example, you were contained because the uptight mods felt like you were making every thread you posted in about yourself, i.e. looking for attention.

The other day chopstick posted this about you. Even if you don't think you are constantly seeking attention here, you do have a tendency to be a little dramatic, as noted by this poster:

He crowd-sourced opinions and then listened to the majority speak out against his idea. It was good modding. If he had just gone ahead with it and only reversed it once people spoke up, that would be different.

El D, the whole sex addiction thing is a joke....I thought you already realized that and we're playing along.

The reason I don't want to leave code 3 is because he really is a good guy and I have complained in my therapy sessions and in person I come off as smart and in control. I tell the therapist that I go crazy and lose control of my mind, but there in person I'm introspective and in control and analyzing and I can't make them see how crazy I am when I'm manic. Everyone of the therapist said they did not think I had BPD and that code 3 was causing my stress and I needed to get away from him, but that's not going to fix me.
I can't explain it, but I just don't outwardly show anything and all this maddness is going on in my head and I'm really really good at looking normal. Even when I have an episode I don't outwardly show anything, I don't throw things or yell, I just text and post and if you were in the room with me you would think I was just relaxing and reading my phone. I've only raised my voice to code 3 maybe twice and I punched him in the chest that time.
I'm in control, but my mind is out of control and I can't effectively explain this to the therapist so that I can get the help I need resolving my issues.