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Originally Posted by JoeC2012
How did you come to accept this? I'm pretty sure deep down I'm the same way, but part of me still harbors the illusion that I'll meet a girl with very similar life goals to me and find a life partner. (My actions don't really align with this though, I'm pretty inflexible and relatively unwilling to make even small lifestyle concessions for a partner at the moment).
Sorry I missed these posts 10 months ago! I'm guessing right after I made the post you're responding to I stopped using 2p2 for 9 months.
Listening to the Savage Lovecast for a while first of all taught me that there
are people who are just happier without long-term monogamy and that it's fine, which is something I previously would have thought was extremely weird. Always assumed the default that I'd get married and have kids some day, though was never attached to that idea unless there was a specific crush I was into.
At age 36 after 3 medium-long term relationships (lifetime) I realized they all eventually turned from me crushing very hard to me being pretty disinterested and feeling trapped. It is also as you say about lifestyle concessions.
I also started thinking more about what you might imagine as the perfect scenario, marrying some gorgeous brilliant famous person. And if I really got in the headspace I was like "nope...I'd be over her too".
I do sometimes still have strong enough crushes that I suspect could potentially work, but these are generally with unavailable women and of course that's likely the reason I think it in the first place.
Very recently I have a female friend trying to convince me that she knows a bunch of men who were happily "bachelor for life" in their 30s-40s but then got depressed in their 50s-60s. Idk...women are on average happier unmarried while men are the opposite, right? So it would stand to reason that there's a fair amount of gender crossover. For me this is probably a moot point anyway. There's no way I'm going to force myself into something in the name of commitment and of
maybe avoiding a dip in happiness in 20 years. It's either going to make me happier now and then of course I'd go with it, or it's not.
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Originally Posted by SandraXII
Wow, this post captures my feelings to a T.
I think most people in life just have a really low pain threshold for being alone. They have this visceral fear of it when if they just reframed it in their mind it surely wouldn't be so bad.
Every time I think of this I'm brought back to the Louis CK bit about people existing only as being alone or being in a 'shitty thing'. IMO so many folks are so desperate not to be alone that they almost force themselves to accept a lower quality partner to avoid it. I'm constantly fascinated by modern couples moving into their late 30s and early 40s. How many are truly happy? Did one or both just 'settle', and if so, does one, both, or neither know it/suspect it? How much honesty is going on there? Why was their price for losing their independence so low? Why do people frame independence as loneliness?
Maybe one day I'll find someone who absolutely is worth the high cost of losing my independence, but at 36 I'm not holding my breath. And if I don't find her, that just seems like the most natural outcome for me, rather than something to be ashamed of.
Yea all of this hard - I am also fascinated about a lot of couples, and generally sense jealousy of me in married male friends. I think that some people are consciously making the tradeoff, some are truly happy, but I suspect a
lot (men and women) are just legit trapped because breaking up is ****ing hard as hell.
It's especially horrifying once you start to think about the gender gap and how up until very recently a woman
had to marry or she was doomed to poverty.