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Originally Posted by killa
He really was trying. Him and I exchange a lot of PM's the overall theme was, "i want to move past this, I have to move on" he wanted nothing more to do with Anna but knew he'd always be tied to her so he , again he tried to take in stride. Not many people around here listen to the advice of "Own it"
There are better known posters have gone way off the deep end or flamed out.
In any case his exchanges with me always seemed sincere.
This will be my one and last post. YOU DO NOT KNOW MARK AND NEVER HAVE. You blocked me on here when I was getting mad about you bad mouthing my heartbreak over him. You will never know the pain I go through every ****ing day from this. We (mark and I) were not on good terms for awhile but little do you know that A. He wrote to me on facebook all throughout my jail time, B. he stayed in winchester to be near me!, not an hour away near his new job. Not to mention that his father sent me a letter and included a letter mark had wrote to me the day before he ****ing died. It was the most perfect and sincere and the best letter I will ever have and I'll keep it forever. It is hard everyday to not crumble when I think of him. Every tall white guy reminds me of him and sometimes my heart stops thinking its him and this was all a horrible joke. All you guys saw and read were the stupid arguments and drama. You were not there when we danced and made out in the rain, when we would drive to each others homes just to take a nap together, when he walked clear across town to give me flowers on my birthday. You know nothing of mark, you've never met him, you have never gotten to know who MARK is (was), so DO NOT sit there and try to act all "buddy buddy" with him and badmouth me as if I'm the bad guy. You should not be a mod. You are biased and a ****ing moron. Mark and I were going through tough times so of course he's going to vent and rant to someone... especially someone like you who loves to hear that kind of **** and be involved in drama. Someone like you who has nothing better to do than to be a teenage girl writing all about the 2+2 drama of the day. So, let me put this in a very understandable way for you... you can get rid of my rights to get on here (although it would make you look like a ****ing pussy) and you can say whatever you'd like about how close you and mark were and what he said about me and blah blah blah. YOU DON'T KNOW AND HAVE NEVER KNOWN MARK. You probably don't even know what his middle name is or the color of his eyes or who he really is and who he wanted to be. All you know is the **** he ranted to you about.
Here's my advice to you. Don't call yourself a killa, just ****ing kill yourself. You're a dumb, drama queen, dick and you love attention. But I swear on my own life, if you ever talk about mark again and if I EVER see you or meet you, I will not hesitate to make it you're last night of fun EVER. You dumb crusty, fat piece of Lard. GET A ****ING LIFE and go exercise or do ANYTHING that doesn't involve getting on the internet and making friends and talking to people who don't even know you. Must be why you love this website so much. You're that guy that puts a handsome 25 yr old pic on eharmony and shows up as an obese piece of ****, sweaty ass dumb 40 year old with no real job or anything substantial that NO ONE will ever want to be near. And, if you have a gf or any of the above, you must have some extra money to spend on these "girls" and "friends".
Leave Mark's name out of your ****ing doughnut mouth and I WILL **** your life up if you take this further. I'm done. I said what I needed to say and if you want to prove you're not an attention seeker and do all this for show then message me for my email and we can chat. We'll have some tea and possibly some arsenic in yours.
NOW THIS IS DONE. IF YOUR A MAN, YOU WILL NOT GO FURTHER WITH THIS AND YOU WILL LEAVE IT ALONE. otherwise, you will prove my point.