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I don't know how busy you are adsman, but could you elaborate on the mind's avoidance of ego death and common experiences early on in the meditation process?
You guys are all asking the tricky ones.
Think about your ego. For what purpose does it serve? It does not serve. It governs. It is in control for no positive reason.
Why is it there? Your ego deveopled as a protection mechanisim when you were a young child around the age of 5 or 6, just when you started interacting with your peers. If there is a field full of sheep and one sheep is black and the rest are white, who will the wolf pick? You developed your ego to protect yourself in the playground, to be accepted, to blend in. It was necessary then. It is not necessary now. Too late, because it has grown all out of proportion and is in control of your most valuable assest - your mind.
So to your mind, death of the ego translates as real death. It knows no other course. The ego will be dragged kicking and sreaming to the end. It will seek to take you with it.
This leads on to early common experiences. The ego at first will be obvious. You will sit down to meditate and the phone will ring. Do not doubt the power of an enraged mind. The next step is creating things for you to do. You will sit down to meditate and almost immediately your mind will start running through the list of all the things that you have to do NOW! Clean the car, wash the dishes, etc etc.
The next stage is the one that usually trips up most people who really want to meditate. It will seem like you are progressing well. The urges to do other things have almost ceased. You are getting the mind under control. What the ego is doing is lulling you into a false sense of security. For no reason at all you will miss one day of meditation. That's Ok. You will continue to mediatate, and you will continue to miss another day here and there. All seemingly innocuous. Within a few months you will have stopped meditating all together. The ego will have won.
Keeping a meditation diary is a good way to combat this. The mind is devious. Be prepared.
"The value of regular meditation is that it takes you away from the humdrum of daily routine and reminds you that you are not what you believe yourself to be.
It has nothing to do with effort. Just turn away, look between the thoughts, rather than at the thoughts. When you happen to walk in a crowd, you do not fight every man you meet, you just find your way between. When you fight, you invite a fight. But when you do not resist, you meet no resistance. When you refuse to play the game, you are out of it."
Sri Nisargadatta. (one serious meditation dude.)