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Originally Posted by ec_outlaw
Not high at all right now, but wish I was. I figured this thread is as good as any for incoherent rambling.
Having probably the most ****ed up emotional night of my life. So much going on in my head right now, and I'm not handling it very well. I don't know what the answers are, or even where else to turn, so the 2p2 high af thread gets my blog post.
Yesterday was day 60 since we filed divorce papers, so we went in and signed the final ones. Just waiting for the judge to sign off on it now. That should be done any day now. Definitely a feeling of finality kicking in that hit me way harder than expected.
Now, I'm left sitting on a bench at a park near the house, listening to Pandora, reflecting on where I went wrong in life, and emo posting on 2p2. Coincidentally, this is the same scenario I found myself in 3 months ago when all this started happening, minus the 2p2 posting.
Over the past 2 months, a new relationship has started to form. Even though I keep trying to let it move slow, **** has progressed faster than I ever would've imagined. Tonight was the first little bump in the road, and ****, it's got my head spinning. Not sure if it's because of this hiccup, because of yesterday, or a combination of the two. But whatever it is, it ****ing sucks. Can't do much about the divorce situation at this point, but I can try to right the ship elsewhere. Yeah, I think that's what I'll do.
Till next time, stay high af 2p2!
Think some closure wrt divorce is going to do much good for you.
You are obviously and understandably going through a time where everything you're used to and your perception of your life/yourself will be changing/questioned. Just remember to give yourself time and avoid being hard on yourself. It's not easy when you're emotionally distressed, but it's only natural. Try to find solace in the FACT that when things settle down a bit things will relatively quickly be manageable again.
Grief/distress/confusion/anxiety is very normal when your world is turning upside down quickly, but it is only until you adapt to the new circumstances, it could take a month, it could take a year, it's impossible to say but things WILL stabilise as long as you avoid self-destructive behavior.