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Originally Posted by Larry Legend
Confirmed high af.
Had an interesting realization today. I do things and say things that remind me of my dad, and I realized it is because from this age on I remember what he was like when he was my current age.
Getting crossfaded for El sapo!
This post reminds me of something I thought about one time that really tripped me out.
I'm 29, but I still feel like I'm 17 in a lot of ways. Like I'm surprised that I'm allowed to work in a casino. Next month will be my 10th anniversary of first dealing job. JFC.
Anyways, that is to say that I am now essentially in the role of step-dad to a 13 year old and 7 year old girls. The 7 year old is very much like I was at that age, just wild as hell, fortunately she doesn't have the sometimes violent tendencies I had. When I'm sober, she drives me nuts, but when I'm high we get along great. She loves how boisterous and playful I can be. It's funny to me how she doesn't question why sometimes I'm just quiet and serious, and other times I'm just howling and making faces and singing bull**** songs and laughing my ass off. But I know she really likes the high me.
So all that to set up the train of thought I had that tripped me out. One of those occasions I started to think about when I was 7 years old, (once I was 7 years old!) and what life was like at home. And specifically the kind of people that were around, family, neighbors, my mom's friends, etc. And I was imagining the way 7 year old me perceived those adults and how I think they probably were from my current perspective. Then I realized that to this little girl, when she's a grown woman and she remembers what life was like at 7, she'll remember my crazy ass (that feels like an adolescent) laughing at nothing and making up stupid songs and watching sports in a recliner. That's ****ing crazy.