simple phone games become wondrous. colors become confusing and new - black tiles shift to white and then black again, and then lose meaning entirely. i looked at a clock and the numbers also had no meaning, like cave drawings whose shapes i could recognize. i set about to do some work on a computer but never had the chance. i lied face down in my bed for a long time, studying the 3-dimensional patterns forming behind my eyes. they reminded me of old Windows screensavers, the 3 dimensional ones that seemed to connect a labyrinth of rooms together. the color scheme was red and pink, like valentine's day, and there were infinite hearts scattered about.

on a lower dose, things were more normal. i looked up at the moon and it was brand new and appealing to gaze at.

I wonder what the relationship is between weed and synesthesia. Years ago I ingested weed to find it tasted the way soap smelled, and it was unusually vivid.

Thoughts produce something of a cover band in my mind, or maybe the instruments play on their own and I can only hope to bend them into different melodies or a usually pointless task of resting. Besides for tasting colors like I imagine any person who grew up with freeze pops would, that is my almost non existent range for synesthesia at my current neurological frequency.

Damn dude. Just smoked and I cant follow that. Lol.

You may as well stay away from booze cuz dudes beat on their wives and people drive drunk and kill people or some poeple have massive freakouts on weed with anxiety attacks or have a schitzo attack. Any drug is gonna have horror stories, I've known tons of people that have done psychedelics and haven't heard anything bad except 1 dude who did enough to dose 100 people. He wasn't right before the drugs tho....


Remember, we've grown up in a world with endless propaganda about drugs. Meanwhile John Hopkins has been doing research using shrooms to treat mental health problems....... Most of what we learned about "street" drugs is pure horse****. I can remember when they used to say weed was as addictive as crack and heroin lol.

ElSapo, I think you're correct that bad trips largely come from what in Buddhism is called upādāna ("grasping, attachment, clinging"), an idea which is central to the Four Noble Truths. "Self-doctrine clinging", which is what you're talking about, is one of the subtypes the Buddha identified.

I know at the places where they give people intense, guided psychedelic trips, like research has been done giving psilocybin to terminally ill people to help them reconcile with death, one of the instructions they tell you to repeat and ingrain in your mind is "the same force which takes me into the experience will, of its own accord, bring me back out". People are also instructed that if they see a door, to open it, if they see stairs, to climb them, etc.

brief trip report from earlier:

I thoroughly enjoyed that brief trip report.

Me too! Damn dude.

Tons of potential in OOT lifting the ban on poker content, I see ... if only the strat forums would post more psychadelics content, we'd really be onto something.

I'm UTG +1 with 45d and I'm tripping hard on 40 mcg of 4-aco and 2 tabs of good acid. I open with a standard raise, folded to the CO who's face is vibrating in time with the Universe. He raises, but the chips turn to lizards and ...

**** could get cool

Lol. I did play 4/8 LHE on 2 tabs 3 years ago. That was interesting.

Story?

That seems like it could be crazy. 1 tab I can kind of imagine. At 2, I'd just be wandering away from the table randomly, I think.

It was fairly lucid with decent visuals. I won something like $160, was about 12am-5am on Tuesday night. I remember thinking I had keen insight into each persons motives for being out splashing around at 4/8 at that time on the clock and calendar.


I might like to try it again some time.

I have synesthesia pretty strongly and it’s definitely intensified by weed and shrooms. I’ve always found it to be linked with numbers in a beneficial way and often play poker a little stoned for this reason, among others.

I have become a massive fan of shrooms over the past few years. But it’s a real drug, not like weed. I guess microdosing is comparable to a strong edible and a lot of fun. Also like macrososing but you gotta be ready for it.

I like that comment about bad trips relating to clinging. I’ve gotten into mindfulness too and resolved to meditate on that on some shroom trips. It does feel like the only times I get uncomfortable on shrooms now are when I’m lying to or fighting myself in some way. Gotta get all your sub minds rowing in the same direction.

I like the idea that the world is so shockingly wondrous that our brains have to filter it out so we can focus and function. Shrooms feels like it removes a lot of this and it can feel like you’re seeing things for the first time. We walked out on to a beach and it felt like I was in a painting. One of the most beautiful experiences I’ve ever had. They also taught me how to ski moguls.

Microdosing is definitely not equal to a strong edible.

Giggly, euphoric, heightened interest in nature/art, body high...

And then some more mushroomy things too.

That’s been my experience over ~5 microdoses

Edit: Maybe I’m talking about medium dosing

That does sound like a medium dosage (which, first time I've seen that term used)--lots of run-up, no peak/full-on trip. MICROdosing is like 2-3 mcg of acid, so even smaller for shrooms.

Microdosing, you barely notice the effects, if at all. Anyway, that's the way the term is often used today, talking about people taking small amounts to combat depression, anxiety, improve focus.

Yeh that’s what I meant; medium dose, no peak or trippy stuff.

It’s weird to me people don’t distinguish between that more because the experiences are v different for me. Both can be great but it depends on the situation.

Once I go to mushroom land w/ a big dose things get v weird v fast.

2 months off the herb is coming to an end this weekend. I can't wait to go to the depths of the abyss again.

Are you diving in deep or just smoking some grass?


I broke my dab rig of 3 years yesterday. Bought a new one. It has little spinny things in there for sport.

As much oil and **** that has already clung to the innards of that glass, it leaves me with feeling unsettled.

Despite cannabis' safety profile, that just can't be good to be huffing oil/wax a few times a day.

Been getting pretty ripped on above pictured glass. Take right now for instance!

Its my 2nd to last night of dabbing for a good while. Borne of necessity, but I welcome it. Even right now the objectively totally fine body high I have right now makes me feel a little uncomfortable. I just wanna get a little stoned, I think, and it would he nice to do that with a vape pen, rather than torch and glass and wax.


The reason it is necessary, is I'm moving to Las Vegas this upcoming week! I was able to find a house that would allow a 3 month lease. Since the old lady and I are as of yet unemployed in the Silver State, Im going to be plopping the deposit and 3 months up front. Gonna be like 7300, puke. But will be nice to not have to pay housing until November.

However, in the last couple days, a new horse as entered into contention! Now, I have NEVER considered buying a house, certainly not before I turn like 50. But, in all this searching for rentals, and seeing what a pain in the ass those rental companies are, I got the idea to look into buying, as I was noticing some figures online.


I never really thought about the fact that 300k divided by 30 years isn't that much monthly. With my recent foray into 800 credit status, I thought I might look and see what my options are!


I spoke to a Mortgage Broker through my bank chain on the phone for an hour, seeking approval in the 335k range. Closing costs out of pocket would be about 17k, and i come up about a Flag short. He dropped the numbers, and I was preapproved (standing for 120 days) for 250k in Clark County! Pretty cool considering I haven't even been there in almost two years.

However, again, there is a yyyuuuge difference in quality of house there from ~250k to 300-350k. After all the searching, i found maybe two that I might even consider committing to long term. Some very livable houses, no doubt, but Im not going go settle over such a relatively small difference.


So, I intend to get a loan for a down payment. Hopefully it wouldn't be too terribly hard to secure 15k for down payment assistance. Thats less than 1/3 of the available credit I have.

And the thing is it has to be done quick! Well, either by Thursday or November. Thursday is when Im supposed to plop 7k on a rental, and I would absolutely love to forego that step.


Problem is I think those type of loans can only be done in branch in Las Vegas. Or that was my understanding from the broker over the phone. Im driving down starting Wednesday with a dog and a couple cats. Pretty tough to house hunt in those conditions. Seems obvious to just wait the 3 months, but goddamnit I am HONGRY!





All that is to say, dab rig and maybe 6 or 7 grams left over from recent sale are getting boxed up and moved into storage. I intend to take an occasional stroke on a vape for appetite purposes, and sleep purposes. I know it doesn't get me high, so I know I've only got one more of those left.

Looking forward to tolerance reset. I hope my appetite doesn't return to its old raging self. I'm down nearly 60 pounds in 8 months eating fast food for over half my sustenance. Really hope it doesn't come down to a battle of willpower again!

I went to a LV store for a vape cart, and holy tits are they expensive. Didnt see a single half gram for under $50. I ended up getting a wax vaporizer, as I brought about 6 grams from Washington. Its kind of curious, hits relatively small, but severely lacking in the taste pleasantries of oil vaping.