I've had it for 9years now, clinnicly. Last 2 years in particular its very,very hard every day. I went from seeing a psychologist for the first time to medicine - mental hospital 3months part-time- mental hospital 3months full time - electroshock therapy - suicide attempt a month ago. Nothing really helped. Im taking less and less medicine now, tired of all the side effects.
Im strangly oke now the last 3 weeks, dont know why. keeping busy with work and friends, girlfriend and minimum 2 hours of sport everyday. t will come back im sure, just taking it day by day now and doing the best I can to be happy. I don't think it will ever go away though, no idea how at this point. But im gonna keep doing my best and taking it day by day
Dropped out of school a year ago, 1 course before I had bachelor and a few more for my master so going to try and finish that now.
Most of my friends know at this point, after noone having a clue for 8 years. I just cant really talk about it and never will. I have found a very good psychologist now (after enough bad ones) and that is much more helpfull than I ever imagined.