Can't believe this hasn't been asked yet

Do you watch United States of Tara? From your description it sounds like the show is pretty accurate. Are there any parts of the show that are just LOL unrealistic based on your real world experience. If you don't watch that show I think it is a must for you (or anyone who thinks this thred is fascinating)...

Oh hey between answering questions, I just thought of a funny poker story. She's never really been into poker, but knows the rules and was playing play money with me and some of my friends one day. The action preflop was something like shove, shove, shove, shove, and then it's to her with pocket Aces and she folded because she was scared of losing. She didn't realize at the time how incredibly bad that was, etc. I thought it was neat.

does it make you a bad person if you're doing your MP girlfriend in the butt and she reverts to the 9 year old personality and you get super turned on?

Nah, there have been better.

I wouldn't say she can control the switching necessarily, but she can definitely influence it a lot of the time. Usually if I need something it's something like "Can I talk to ________ for a little while?" Then sometimes she can and sometimes she can't.

I don't disagree. I'm not getting married anytime soon. She's not particularly thrilled about that, but she understands.

At first we called the child one "Little" just to have a name to refer to it by. I talk about how the others got their names in this long-*** post.

The seizures aren't epileptic, but they look just like standard grand mal seizures. There's no medication to help with the seizures, only the anxiety that helps to cause the seizures.

When they first started, they would happen anywhere from 3 to 8 times a day, for anywhere from 30 seconds to 2-3 minutes at a time. Most of the time she loses consciousness, but sometimes she doesn't. Often she remains unconscious after for some short (occasionally long ~45 minutes or more) period.

Michelle and Rebecca are about even.

Answered this in this post.

Glad you enjoy.

Don't feel sorry for me. From the first time I had to hold her hair while she puked because she was having such a severe panic attack, I pretty much knew I was getting into some ****. While I never would have guessed all this would have happened, I realize that I made a choice to be there through it, and I'm okay with that.

Bam.

Told you so.

Trying pics again after I finish this batch of answers. Might have vids if I can get them off of my phone (sorry no balls on forehead vids).

She'd probably be dead. We've talked about that one too. Feels bad man.

In before a response of "3, 2, 5, 1, 4" to a picture of just Michelle.

Thanks.

I'll ask her what she thinks about this. She'll probably laugh, but I doubt she'll do it.

Does she know you are psoting all of this? Would be interesting to hear some of this from her firsthand if she is ok posting it. My apologies if you already answered this.

MPD is interesting. I'll shut my mouth about getting into an emprical debate about it though because so far the thread has been interesting and don't want to derail.

Once had a client who cliamed to be MPD brought in a note by their "best friend" saying that he was a liar and couldn't be trusted along with other things.

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Dude. No ****ing way. No ****ing way.

Finally imageshack worked, so here is the pics post.


Me.




Michelle pre-personality stuff.


Little Michelle doing a 'gangsta' impression. October 2008






Little Michelle wanted to go swing, so we went to the playground at the church at the end of my road. Summer 2009, I think.


This is on the Blue Ridge Parkway on the side of a bridge, early summer 2009 before Rebecca ever showed up. I thought it would be a good picture, but Little Michelle was scared ****less to go out on the bridge, so I told her to hold my hand the entire time. Also those sunglasses are heart-shaped. Yay little kid mode.


Normal Michelle making a face waiting on food. February 2009


Little Michelle smelling of a book I had in the car. Btw we were parked. April 2009.


Little Michelle nomming on the same book. April 2009


Normal or Little Michelle (I'm not sure which) waiting in the hospital for something unrelated (thought she had appendicitis, turned out to be a minor cyst). June 2009


Michelle and her mom, waiting in the ER for a bed in behavioral health. I'm not sure of which time it was.


According to my phone, this was on March 22, 2010.

LOL at comparing this to cancer. Most people aren't potential dangers to themselves and others just because they have cancer. She tried to kill you at least one time, right?



It is not uncommon when one person tries to kill another person for that other person to decide, "maybe it's time to go."

Yes, if my fiance was going so nutso that I had to call 911 on her a couple of times and also make a concerted effort to keep her from killing me I think we might mutually decide that our relationship just isn't such a great idea right now.

Similarly, if I was losing it mentally and she had to call 911 on me because I was bouncing around the house with a machete and scaring the crap out of her...or she had to worry even in the slightest about whether I might turn like a switch and kill her tonight... then I would ABSOLUTELY expect her to take off.

This is not an indictment against the caring and love we have for each other in our relationship. She's supposed to not want to be killed or injured by me nor have to worry about that. I appreciate her more for the self respect she has and the knowledge that I have that she wouldn't stay with somebody (even me) who was that dangerous.

I am not a psychology expert of any kind, so take all of the following with a huge grain of salt, but...

My guess is, yes, you are attracting them, and they are attracting you as well for some reason.

This.

It sounds like she is the victim of quite a bit of childhood trauma, not just the isolated molestation incident. But then I would consider a highly religious upbringing abuse in itself.

You might be interested in the following video series, starting with:

The Bomb in the Brain Part 1 - The Effects of Child Abuse

I am just watching it now myself. I originally skipped over this series because I watch this guy mostly for his political views. You may not agree with those, but he also has some interesting views on parenting and abuse.

up until those pictures i was almost positive this was KKF.

Looks like I was wrong.

Best of luck man. I dated a girl once that would threaten to cut herself a ton. I couldnt just end it because I couldnt bear the idea that she would go through with it and I would be partially responsible or couldve stopped it.

I imagine that this is like that on steroids.

I, for one, think being able to put your balls on your gf's forehead while she's passed out from a seizure is a pretty solid basis for marriage.

On a serious note, this smacks of really bad codependent dysfunction on your end. Your gf is cute and she may be wonderful when normal, but this is severe mental illness you've described itt--she's a danger to herself and others. Frankly, I don't see a normal person staying with this girl, although you are fairly young so maybe that factors in.

I may be wrong here, but I seem to detect a real pleasure in your descriptions of Little Michelle. I'm not accusing you of pedophilia or anything, but you seem to get off on some level to the caretaker/parent role that this aspect of her personality foists on you, or that's at least the way it reads to me.

Also kinda confused noticed people in this thread saying disociative identity disorder is different than mpd. Is there a reason for this belief?

Except that OP hasn't once mentioned that he was thinking of leaving her.

That was more of a "I can understand one reason why you feel you cant/dont want to leave".

For some reason her being a redhead totally changed the way I think about this whole thing. Am I the only one?

Meh... of all the ****ed up **** in this thread, the fact that OP clearly gets off on taking care of this girl doesn't seem like the one to focus on.

There's a joke there about gingers not having souls and possession.

It's just one I hadn't seen mentioned yet while scanning, and it's a somewhat subtle dynamic that I find creepy, not just in this relationship, but in relationships, in general. Obviously the most important aspect of this whole thing is that gf has tried to kill herself and both of them on numerous occasions.

You know she's gonna look like her mom in 20 years, right? And still be crazy?

she's hot.

LOL, my first thought. Redhead + Michelle = pure craziness.

OP, why is asparagus like anal sex?

I don't know if this has been asked, but OP do you think you have any mental problems of your own? I can't decide if you are a normal guy dealing with an abnormal situation or if you are pretty twisted. Having sex with a girl that looks that young while she thinks she's nine or whatever is really freaking me out. On the other hand, you're having a relatively normal consensual relationship with a fellow adult, so I dunno.