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Old 07-27-2010, 05:24 PM   #51
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By "unfavorable results," do you mean that most people you let into your world
react negatively? If so, could it be that they're reacting to your social avoidance vibe more than the OCD itself?

I understand that you don't wish to appear different, but you are different (and I give you credit for dealing with this head-on). What's the value of maintaining the facade since it doesn't seem to help much?
Yes, most people react negatively, and the social avoidance is more of a byproduct of the negativity, not the cause. For example, I remember a former good friend of mine was brought into my apartment at college one day, and he became pissed that I would seem to take about the same thing over and over again, was mortified by the mishmash of collectibles everywhere, and never really treated me the same since that day. Seeing people turned off by the inner-most workings of my personality has made me avoidant.

The value of maintaining the facade?
-It helps with live poker
-I can tell when people are doing something similar through recognizing patterns
-If you have met me IRL and are a casual acquaintance of mine, you do not know I have any mood/personality disorders and I appear perfectly normal. It allows me to have a small degree of impersonal interaction, and though my attempts to discover people who will accept me as I am, I have found 1. This alone makes the effort worth it.
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Old 07-27-2010, 05:26 PM   #52
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Re: Ask me about what it is like living with obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD)

Stop it

You ever go to Blackhawk?
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Old 07-27-2010, 05:28 PM   #53
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Any Tourette symptoms as well?

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Old 07-27-2010, 05:29 PM   #54
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Any Tourette symptoms as well?
None at all. Not even in the slightest degree.
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Old 07-27-2010, 05:29 PM   #55
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Stop it

You ever go to Blackhawk?
Nope, nor do I know what you are really asking?
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Old 07-27-2010, 05:30 PM   #56
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Cool thread, It may just be me but you come across in your writing as very ridged and formal, not so much your punctuation as your sentence structure and use of language. Is this attributed to OCD? Would you describe yourself as formal etc in real life?

Or am I just insane :s
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Cool thread, It may just be me but you come across in your writing as very ridged and formal, not so much your punctuation as your sentence structure and use of language. Is this attributed to OCD? Would you describe yourself as formal etc in real life?

Or am I just insane :s
I am very informal in appearance, informal in conduct, but formal in terms of using grammar because I think it conveys that I am putting thought and respect into my posts. It is not really OCD-related, but it is something I am innately-compelled to do.
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Old 07-27-2010, 05:35 PM   #58
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Nope, nor do I know what you are really asking?
It's a gambling town in Colorado. Where do you play?
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Old 07-27-2010, 05:37 PM   #59
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Have you ever been in a relationship and/or do you think you will ever be able to? are you a virgin?
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It's a gambling town in Colorado. Where do you play?
I went to Vegas as an introduction to live poker, which was a major sensory overload, but I do most of my playing on Full Tilt. Never took the initiative to go to Blackhawk.
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Yes, most people react negatively, and the social avoidance is more of a byproduct of the negativity, not the cause. For example, I remember a former good friend of mine was brought into my apartment at college one day, and he became pissed that I would seem to take about the same thing over and over again, was mortified by the mishmash of collectibles everywhere, and never really treated me the same since that day. Seeing people turned off by the inner-most workings of my personality has made me avoidant.
Thanks for the explanation. I would think that as people move out of their early 20s they'd be more understanding of differences... has it gotten any better in this regard at all? What I've come to know is that everyone is screwed up and twisted in one way or another, even if it's being more or less brainwashed into being "normal."

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The value of maintaining the facade?
-It helps with live poker
-I can tell when people are doing something similar through recognizing patterns
-If you have met me IRL and are a casual acquaintance of mine, you do not know I have any mood/personality disorders and I appear perfectly normal. It allows me to have a small degree of impersonal interaction, and though my attempts to discover people who will accept me as I am, I have found 1. This alone makes the effort worth it.
I see what you're saying. This last part sounds a bit like what my friend who is gay told me about being in the closet- at least if gave him a chance at getting to know people without being rejected right off the bat.
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Old 07-27-2010, 05:43 PM   #62
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I'm still completely baffled by your diet. Do you ever get bored with it? Or get cravings for say a steak or ice cream or anything?
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Have you ever been in a relationship and/or do you think you will ever be able to? are you a virgin?
Now we are getting to the good stuff. To preface, I am straight.

I have never been in a relationship, due to a combination of a lack of interest, an occupation with other aspects of life, and pervasive fear concerning my ability to take such a commitment too far.

I am not sure if I will be able to enter one, as it would involve completely opening up myself to someone...and I have enough trouble being rejected by a friend, never mind someone who I may like beyond this level.

Luckily, I have never really been interested by much of anyone, despite working in an environment full of very attractive females who are all very successful...but I hate the hypocrisy that many of them emit. The only time I have ever felt anything for a female was when I used to regularly interact with a crude, outspoken ***** outside of the workplace, and my obsessions about her were some of my worst. I do not know if I could deal with being rejected by her, so I still have kept these feelings internal.

Thus, it logically follows that I am indeed a virgin.
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I'm still completely baffled by your diet. Do you ever get bored with it? Or get cravings for say a steak or ice cream or anything?
I never get bored with it, and never doubt my will power. No cravings have ever been addressed.
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Thanks for the explanation. I would think that as people move out of their early 20s they'd be more understanding of differences... has it gotten any better in this regard at all? What I've come to know is that everyone is screwed up and twisted in one way or another, even if it's being more or less brainwashed into being "normal."



I see what you're saying. This last part sounds a bit like what my friend who is gay told me about being in the closet- at least if gave him a chance at getting to know people without being rejected right off the bat.
If anything, the subtle persecution has become worse as I have gotten older, which has actually shocked me. It got to the point where I needed to file multiple leaves of absence from work in order to put myself back together. I pride myself in being a "real" person, even if it is abnormal.
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What is your favorite Genesis album?

How many stomach crunches can you do?

What is your favorite Huey Lewis and the News song?
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What is your favorite Genesis album?

How many stomach crunches can you do?

What is your favorite Huey Lewis and the News song?
None

You don't want to know

Power of Love, Back to the Future FTW
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What's your BMI?
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It is a common misconception that those with severe mood disorders are easy to spot, but those of us who try to function in society prepare ourselves in advance in order to avoid scrutiny.

OCD may be a disorder rooted in mood, but its social effects are underestimated. I spend many a night alone.
For the record, OCD is an anxiety disorder, not a mood disorder.

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If someone asks what time it is, do you say 3:59 instead of 4:00?
Serious question -- do you really view this as abnormal?

Hmmm, I have numerous OCD traits I guess. But it's not a disorder with me as I function well and don't really have much anxiety.

And to make this post more appropriate, I'll go with a question (hoping I didn't just miss the answer already): how did you and your family cope/deal with the diagnosis when it was first given?
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What's your BMI?
18.8, with a very low body fat %...I would need to get out my caliper to re-asses the specific number.
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Old 07-27-2010, 06:35 PM   #71
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For the record, OCD is an anxiety disorder, not a mood disorder.



Serious question -- do you really view this as abnormal?

Hmmm, I have numerous OCD traits I guess. But it's not a disorder with me as I function well and don't really have much anxiety.

And to make this post more appropriate, I'll go with a question (hoping I didn't just miss the answer already): how did you and your family cope/deal with the diagnosis when it was first given?
Good point, it is an anxiety disorder in accordance with the DSM-IV.

OCD is not characterized by the act of obsessing, I mean, everyone does it occasionally, but mine never really ends and greatly influences my behavior.

It was my family who persuaded me to see someone after seeing my hoarding in action for years, seen my resistance (vehement screaming, locking myself in my room, etc) to breaking ritualistic behavior, and general lack of self-esteem. When I was diagnosed, I felt as if I could finally come to terms with who I am, and my family has always been supportive, even if the general public has not been.

But I must say that this topic has been excellent to host, keep the questions coming, everyone. Your combined respect and insightful questions are more than appreciated.
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If anything, the subtle persecution has become worse as I have gotten older, which has actually shocked me. It got to the point where I needed to file multiple leaves of absence from work in order to put myself back together. I pride myself in being a "real" person, even if it is abnormal.
what was the longest leave of absence from work due an "incident"?
what was the incident?

Perhaps the "worsening" effect you speak of is somewhat related to adults having less free time...which, in my experience, directly translates into less free time to spend on cultivating relationships with "fringe" acquaintances.
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I did provide it, more or less, after many requests.

For breakfast, it is .90 cups of oatmeal with an orange and protein supplement for 500 calories.

Lunch consists of a turkey sandwich, dry, for 250 calories.

Dinner is another bowl of oatmeal with supplement, a can of green beans, and a can of carrots. 700 calories.

I add in a 350-calorie cushion for a snack in the nighttime, usually a bowl of oatmeal or, when I feel like splurging, some unbuttered popcorn.
I work at a hospital as an exercise and nutrition specialist and thought I'd chime in about your diet. Of those 1450 to 1800 daily calories you consume daily, I'm seeing VERY low fat intake. This can actually cause a number of health problems. Some of the big issues relate to vitamin-absorption, skin health, and hormone function. You NEED at least 20 grams of fat per day. Also, the reason your workouts wore you out was because you weren't taking in enough calories. At 1450 cals per day I'm suprised you aren't in zombie mode, even with little to no activity. Add exercise to the mix and you become even more deprived. I know it must be hard to fathom changing your diet with this disorder, but I seriously recommend making some changes. Best of luck.
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I work at a hospital as an exercise and nutrition specialist and thought I'd chime in about your diet. Of those 1450 to 1800 daily calories you consume daily, I'm seeing VERY low fat intake. This can actually cause a number of health problems. Some of the big issues relate to vitamin-absorption, skin health, and hormone function. You NEED at least 20 grams of fat per day. Also, the reason your workouts wore you out was because you weren't taking in enough calories. At 1450 cals per day I'm suprised you aren't in zombie mode, even with little to no activity. Add exercise to the mix and you become even more deprived. I know it must be hard to fathom changing your diet with this disorder, but I seriously recommend making some changes. Best of luck.
There is monosaturated and polysaturated fat in oatmeal, and if I am adding things up quickly, I chime in just over 20 grams, which is suboptimal, but it is all "good" fat, as well.

When I exercised, I upped it to 2000, but that is hardly enough, and one way or another, I always make sure to get 1750-1800 calories per day. No more. No less.
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If anything, the subtle persecution has become worse as I have gotten older, which has actually shocked me.
Sorry to hear this. So, your co-workers know about the OCD? Or they've seen glimpses and because of this have ostracized/made fun/discriminated etc?
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