Hi there,
Start or End? Restart? I'm so much intrigued by these questions.
I've started playing poker a long time ago. I cannot tell you how long; but it's a while and some begginers from my era improved their poker skills, some their luck, and made fortunes, tens of Ks, hundreds and very few millions. I've started and restarted, after every bust, earned some bucks in Mtts, in freerolls, grinded them up, and busted... Then started and restarted again, deposited here and there, busted... Redeposited, grinded them up, and... busted... Watched lots of training videos, schedulling every new aquisition, every new concept to be learnt. Yet in vain! I know aproximatively how's playing good and optimal, how the thing goes with exploiting some people's weaknesses, but i cannot help myself - I rather play badly for awhile, like half a month, then win back huge (anyway, my alternative PTBBs, cause I deleate my PK3 and HM databases after every bust out, vary between 16-50), then lose all the next month. I'm losing and my EV shows that I'm lucky. I bust out everything I have and these creepy technicalities argue that I'm the most lucky man on planet... WTF, it's supertilting.
75% of time, from what I can remember, I played mainly 0.01/0.02 on the ipoker network. You know, it's that european trashy and degen network, where fish are reckless maniacs, reckless calling stations, blablabla, made in France, Russia, Ukrain and whatever... (N.B. the largest amounts of money I lost though playing with drunkards from Manchaster UK, **** them!)... So, I'm a donk...
At the beginning of the month, had $135 in my account. Now, have $23. Two days ago, had $78... Lost more than 25 buyins at 0.01/0.02 in 2K hands. No kiddin', just sorrow.
I wanna start up again.
P.S. I play HU (only)... If you are kind to give me some advice... I opened a blog, where I'll post results...
Bests!
http://equersah.blogspot.com/
