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Originally Posted by KeepTrack
It has been 9 days since my last bet.
I have to admit that my mind has been thinking about it alot.
But at the same time I also started to think about other aspects of my life.
I really need to balance my life. It's hard to being thrown back to reality.
I've been neglecting everything & now I'm overwhelmed to get back.
But I'll continue to fight this demon.
Sorry about the bad paragraphs. I'm on a phone.
I don't even know where to start but I'll do my best
I was you.
Not really into baccarat but more poker
And roulette. I was quite a good poker
Player and lived in a small
City where the game was really soft. I did well and Had a good
Hourly rate. But I was also a
Blackjack and roulette degen at the time. I
Moved to a new city. Games were tougher. I told
Myself if I just did this different or that different. I would win. But every time I would get in a bad head space and not use my system or strategy. I would
Blame that for losses and go back.
These guys arnt lying. Your a smart enough guy to
Figure out that there's no system or strategy to turn a negative ev into a
Positive. If the house edge is 1% you are throwing $1 in the dumpster every time you bet $100. No ifs and buts or maybes. You need to realize this
Just over 2 years ago I finally
Hit my rock bottom and quit. It's honestly the hardest thing ever. It consumes you. It's all I knew. All my friends gambled it's what I did in my spare time. It was my life.
IMO you need to look at what time and when you use to gamble and make plans for every possible trigger time that you had. If your sitting there doing nothing you can only fight it so long
Unfortunatly a couple monthes ago my wife started
Mentioning some shows she wanted to see in vegas. I figured after a couple years I could go and enjoy some food and shows and not gamble. I was wrong
I almost instantly got stuck a bit and could feel my heart racing like it had so many times before. Long story short I lost 6k faster than I
Ever did before
I instantly felt like I hadn't for 2 years. That sick feeling in your stomach. Where you feel like the worlds biggest idiot. Where you don't know
Weather you want to scream or cry. You think of
All the things you could've had with that money but now it's gone.
I did something different this time. Rather than lie and hide it. I told
My wife. I told my non gambling friends when I got
Home.
It's 2 weeks later and I still pace around every day thinking why did I do it. I was so good for so long. I had my eye on this pellet smoker BBQ combo for monthes and couldn't do it. Now I lost all that money and have nothing to show for it
To sum it up. The degeneracy never goes away. You may think it has but it will come roaring back.
If u check some
Of my previous posts I talk about quitting a
Few
Other times.