After reading your post I am morally certain of two things:
1. Your parents are right. You do have a serious gambling problem.
2. You won't listen to me either.
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but i just tell i love to play poker
If this was really true you would not radically increase limits everytime you got up a few dollars. Perhaps you enjoy the game but you
love the gamble. There is no skill and precious little game in playing PLO with 2.5 buy-ins. The way you actually behave is the real you regardless of what you may tell yourself and others.
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and know i can beat the game
So what? Lots of people have the technical skills to win at poker but very few actually do. It's really the least part of the qualifications. Unless you are actually consistently building a bankroll and not going broke you cannot beat the game. To paraphrase Yoda there is no "try" in poker. You are either doing it or you are not and clearly you are not.
The real issue here is that there are skillful poker players and gambling addicts and many of them are the same people. It's never been a mutually exclusive thing.
The irony is that not only is your inability to control your gambling destroying the rest of your life, it is also destroying any possibility of realizing your dream of becoming a successful high-stakes player. You can't learn unless you practice and you can't practice when you are trapped in a vicious circle of bankroll suicide and low-paid manual labor.
BTW, do you also think you can beat sports betting? That you are going broke in two different forms of gambling is the reddest of red flags.
My advice to you is to completely stop gambling and either get an education or learn a trade so that you can have a good life.