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Originally Posted by +EVillain
I’ve heard a ton of players (maybe 5) describe this exact same thing, and they admit that they have also become numb to the highs and lows of life outside poker
I've talked about this in my PGC threads numerous times. A good example I use is that I used to get super into basically any sport I was watching, whether I was cheering for a team/person or not. Nowadays, I basically never have any reaction. Even after the Cubs won the World Series, and I traveled from MX to 2 of the games vs the Dodgers so I was even more invested, I barely had any reaction. I'm super even keeled and zen to the max basically always, but at times I definitely do miss feeling emotions.
Since I saw a graph get posted, I'll share a story as I have the graph saved. This -6fig day was during SCOOP 2016. My roommate L.A.Ruseman got like 3 $60 9man hyper turbos off and tilted way harder in those 3 games than I did all day long
. I actually never once swore, yelled, hit my desk, slammed a mouse/kb etc. And then after the grind, I remember we went out to go watch a UFC card and people at the bar asked how poker was going and after I told them how today went, they were almost all in shock and couldn't believe how chipper I was.
Obviously helps that I'm staked for HSSNGs+MTTs, but I probably wouldn't have a reaction regardless.
I also in the 6 days after this -6fig day had 3 SCOOP-H FTs + won a boatload back at HS-nosebleed SNGs. The 3rd FT I actually ended up shipping the event for 250k. I remember winning the MTT and maybe smiling and just immediately changing clothes, grabbing keys and heading out the door. I arrived to the bar where numerous people had been railing me via someones laptop, and they were all way more excited and amped up than I was. Went out for a couple drinks and then was home and in bed to be back on the grind the next morning.