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FWIW I have about 140,000 or so hand history where I was running at or near expectation for the first 90,000 or so hands, with an immediate and rapid drop following my first cashout.
I believe you in what you say with regard to the timing of these events, though the odds are significant that they are completely unrelated events.
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Within about 30,000 hands, on all-in hands alone, I dropped around 16 BI in equity. In addition I started running KK into AA many times (twice in one session IIRC). Obviously that aspect is quite a bit more subjective.
I have been told alternately a) This happens and is just variance
It likely is a bad run of variance, and the few who have offered hand histories have been shown that the results are generally within 2 SD and often times 1 SD from expected.
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b) I just suck and tilt.
Good chance you started playing well below your A game once you hit a bad stretch of luck and this contributed further to the problem. You even say so later that you tilted a bit. This is not too unusual in that situation.
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c) The things I am describing are impossible.
Technically they are possible, but they are extremely impractical to do as there is no real gain, there is a huge risk to the business if caught, and there are plenty of people who have cashed out a lot without experiencing any sort of curse.
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Tilt has definitely been a factor in my current swong, and I definitely started making some serious mistakes, but I think it is safe to say my experience in online Poker following my cashout has been markedly different than my experience prior to cashout.
If it was not a cash out, it would be something else if you use this mind set. Losing after a big tourney score. Losing after clearing a bonus. Losing after your birthday.
By picking an unrelated event you are removing some of the responsibility from yourself which may make you feel better, but you also avoid analyzing the factors which may have actually helped cause the downswing.
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All I can say is that I have had an experience that at a glance seems to be in line with the "cashout curse," and I'm willing to submit my HH and documentation of when my cashout occurred. I doubt my experience alone settles anything one way or another, but at least it will be a set of data that can be analyzed rather than a bunch of random verbal pissing matches.
Finally, I don't want this post used as a straw man to prove that I'm some nut on a crusade to prove online Poker is rigged. Like I said, I know how easy it is to delude yourself so I don't really have an opinion. However, the whole UB thing wouldn't have come to light without the players themselves keeping an eye on the stats. I don't think it would be such a bad idea to do some grinding.
You pretty much identified the problem with your multiple references to how you tilted. Next time you experience the start of a downturn, just focus on that and see if the results differ, Remove cashouts or other things from the equation.
Otherwise if you think cashing out will cause problems then never cash out or do not play, because believing in those curses will mean you never play your A game anyway.