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Originally Posted by GRINDINGGRINGO
jared your a pathetic loser!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if i ever saw one,,,
lol donk @ your poker skill, i litterally know grade scholler that could stealyour soup kitchen money!
I've beat myself up more than enough already about losing on the show. I was really hard on myself about every single mistake that I made. Losing sleep, cursing myself, feeling bad about money I could have won, things I could have done differently, for months. When you get a once in a lifetime opportunity, put everything you have into it, and lose, it hurts. I was playing for my family, for charity, for medication which I can't afford right now, etc etc.
I have psoriatic arthritis, my joints are in pain from the time I wake up till the time I go to sleep. People who trash talk me, sometimes say I'm "trying to be saintly" or that I'm "arrogant". I make a very conscious effort, everyday, to be positive. It's a lot of work, and takes a lot of my energy, but I don't have an alternative.
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we have to realize that he was never a poker player and just a fish who got lucky and manipulated people to give him money.
After the show I volunteered with several charities and gave a lot of the money I had away. Had I known I would get hundreds of comments, insulting my character, maybe I wouldn't have gotten my hopes up, so much, about people matching my donations. I will keep going though, learning what I can from this.
Saying I'm bad at poker for how I played 120 hands, under immense pressure, in an unusual format, is absurd.
Sometimes I let comments like these make me wish that I was never on the show. But at the end of the day it was a great experience and I won't let anyone take that away from me. I'm proud of myself for opening my life up completely to a bunch of strangers. And I'm proud of myself for giving 110%.
I used to be homeless, I tried to use my opportunity on a TV show to not only help myself but to also win money for a kid's charity. If you hate on that, you've got problems. My 15 minutes of fame is done, and I'm proud of what I tried to do with it.
Last edited by RelaxedPrecision; 08-17-2011 at 02:29 PM.