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I just ****ed up really bad people. I sat down with my roll at a HU table for no reason other than I just sorta stopped caring about poker, and lost everything to a ridiculous suckout. But thats not the bad part. I proceeded to redeposit 5x in a row until stars blocked me, depositing money I could not afford to lose. Like REALLY could not afford to lose. Villain has a string of notes on his PTR about insane suckouts, and sure enough he put the most ridiculously bad beats on me i've ever seen. My eyes welled up and I actually started to cry for a moment because I just royally fvcked my back account up bad. Like I'm not sure what I'm going to do now, this was rent money. I just couldnt stop, I could not believe that this guy was going to 2 outer me like he did over and over. It was the most incredible feat of suckouts in the shortest span of time i've ever seen. Like 49 hands and down 5 BI's. He just keep 3betting and calling 3bets with nonsense hands, getting it allin on flop and just catching runner runner like you couldnt believe. I am shaking, and about to throw up. I dont know how I'm going to explain this to my g/f since we share a joint checking account and live together. I am going to ban myself from stars/FTP for the next 6 months or so as self-punishment since I never thought I would lose control like this. I have ALWAYS been in such complete control of my life. Sure I've been to busto-ville plenty of times, but I've never redeposited over and over as a result. I am so ashamed at myself. Thank god stars actually blocked me from making any more deposits.

Sorry to hear this.......

Don't stress to bad.....move forward......learn from your mistakes.....be honest with your girl and yourself.......

You got some catching up to do....get a 2nd, 3rd job and pay back your girl and get that rent payed.

Your probably going to have to steal some flowers and chocolate to because your in big trouble with her....

Maybe if you treat her real nice she bail you out?? But you must pay her back otherwise she will never trust you again or bail you out again the next time your in trouble.

The #1 rule of gambling IS: .........

G/L

How much was your roll? What stakes were you playing ? And what was the total amount you lost?

Just remember it is just money, so dont do anything stupid that you will really regret. Also look up Mike Carios threshold of misery, because its sounds like your there now.

I told her what happened and now we're breaking up.... seriously... dont want to talk about it anymore.

"It could always be worse"

live and learn, GL.

This reminds me of people who are fat, they blame everything why they are, - they way they are. You know the people that say I dont have time to go the gym or I could never lose the weight no matter what I do.

Dear Jebus, just have some self control, put down that ****** cheese burger and eat a ****** salad man, do some exercise you fat pig I mean its not rocket science - eat better and get your body moving more, simple.

Its the same thing for poker, alcohol, cigarettes etc, you control it, rather than it controlling you.

Now you lost all that money and you feel awful, remember this feeling, remember this post, remember how your bank account statement looked like, remember how it felt to sleep by yourself jerking off because your GF left you................wrap that feeling up into a ball so it becomes a part of you, your life, your body, your soul, so that its imprinted into your skull, heck get a ****** tattoo of it.

So in 6 months from now you sit down and play some cards, you will remember not to do it again.

I called gamblers hotline when I was 17 after Iost $2K. The lady was a real prude. She asked where i got the money that i lost. I told her from playing poker. She basically told me to eat dirt.

Inb4 nl25.

You shouldnt play any more poker

Tell her the TRUTH!

Self-ban from every gambling institution in the world. Then tell your girlfriend you watched a movie called Rounders and it influenced you to put your savings on the line. Then explain how there's also a screenplay called Euro Rounders where they play a game where you can only bet the size of the pot, and that you will be pursuing this game with all of your mind body and soul. Meanwhile, get a job, don't tell your girlfriend, just pretend you're playing PLO and everything is cool, and then quit your job once the money has been made back. Then you can tell her that playing poker wasn't a bad thing and you were right all along.

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