Quick hand for some backstory:
Villain is a big calling station and in general a very "weird" playing player, it seems like he doesn't follow any strategy, just makes random moves based on feel.
Deepstack game, around 250bbs effective.
We're UTG with K
K
We open to 3bbs, BTN calls, villain in the BB 3-bets to 10bbs, we 4-bet to 25bbs, villain calls.
Flop: Q
8
5
Pot: 53bbs
Villain checks, we bet 30bbs, villain calls.
Turn: Q
8
5
3
Pot: 113bbs
Villain checks, we bet 60bbs, villain calls.
River: Q
8
5
3
8
Pot: 233bbs
Villain checks. Pot is already big but I believe he will call down with any queen so I go all-in for the remaining 135bbs.
Villain snap calls and shows K
8
for rivered trips. I died inside a little bit.
Anyway, the question is not really about the hand (but if you think I could have done something differently then of course do tell!) but about variance. One situation where the hand really played itself and instead of being up 250bbs for the session I was down 250bbs. It's huge and you can't help but feel frustrated and depressed. On one hand I want to play deepstack poker because I know I'm good enough to fold when I'm beat and I can get even more value from calling stations but after a hand like this I start doubting myself. I'm not sure I have the right mindset and discipline to handle such swings, is it better to buy-in for 100bbs to reduce variance? What are your experiences in regards to this?