I am a 21yrold PhD student who frequently plays live 1/2, 1/3, and sometimes 2/5 if the game is good enough. Recently this summer I have been on a massive heater and have dedicated more time to playing as I do not have classes and only work part time in the research lab.

I have won 20/23 past sessions and 10 straight now. Almost every session where I have won, I have won big and the losing sessions have been small or at most half a buy in.

I'm not saying that I do not expect to win long term or anything, but recently I am entering sessions expecting to lose big. I understand that 'sessions' are just one long time compiled of your poker career but I can not help the feeling of expecting to get coolered when entering big hands. On one hand sometimes I feel so confident and play a really good game and sometimes I feel I am gun-shy at certain moments b/c the feeling of "I'm due to lose anyday now".

Anybody else ever experience this? I am hoping to try to overcome this mindset and just continue to play at the best of my ability.

Yes, I experience this which leads to weak passive play. I play online, so 100BB is not hard to get all-in.

I look for a spot to make a good all-in bet, usually a good bluff spot but maybe thin value, and jam it all in. A good coin-flip with AK is perfect.

So, I am not spewing but I shake off that weak-tight and get back to the poker that is winning 10 straight sessions. Solid aggressive poker.

If you're bankrolled properly, so what if you lose a big pot or pots?, its just part of variance.

Have you heard of the ABC model of emotions?

It provides an incredibly useful framework of evaluating your situation here.

Activating Event --> Belief (Thoughts) --> Consequence (Emotions)

Everything that we experience in life is being procressed often subtly through this framework.

Your Activating Event is the string of big wins
Your Belief is that it means your due
The Consequence is that it makes you fearful

In order for you not to be fearful you have to change your belief.

And the big question is how do you actually do this?

By utilising the brain's main learning hack: repetition.

1) Invent your own thought that is counteracts this limiting belief you have e.g. "I am always looking to make the best decision I can in the moment"
2) Visualise this belief
3) Feel this belief in your body

Repeat this 10 times when you wake up, 10 times before you play and 10 times before you sleep. If you don't believe this works or want to put in the effort, good luck finding a more efficient method.

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