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Originally Posted by tucanroman
I will look for Elliot, thanks. What you say is kind of true but it just happens when deep in tournaments. I mean, I am just a fish who wants to play poker for real, but these situations are like 6471849653 says: is a blank mental moment, then (and even while) you can't understand how you did it and feel stupid.
Hey tucanroman.
Reading this thread strikes a chord as I recognise something akin to your problem in my own behaviour. Been with me since childhood.
I suspect my own issue is something to do with a fear of success.
My first experience of this was one time when playing football (rugby) as a child. I found myself in the clear, racing down the sideline with nothing between me and the goal line. I was going to score. All I had to do was a simple sidestep around a defender who I knew was slower than me. The small crowd was cheering me on and I was about to score the winning points in what would have been the team's only win for the season. For some reason, instead of avoiding the defender, I let him tackle me and lost my chance of scoring the winning points. To this day (40 years later) I have no idea why I wasn't able to complete the simple task of avoiding that defender. And I didn't just not avoid him. I actually slowed down and allowed him to tackle me. I'm sure it was a mental thing. I subconsciously sabotaged my chance to be the hero.
Here's another example:
You know those radio quiz shows where a listener calls in? I'm a truck driver, I listened to this quiz show every night, and one time I decided "what the hell" and I called in. I was fortunate to be chosen as the guy to answer the winning question. The question was on a subject I am practically an expert in. Australian Numismatics. I collected and dealt coins, banknotes and stamps for a number of years and have more knowledge on this subject than probably > 95% of the Australian adult male population. The question? What was the highest denomination Australian banknote after Federation? For me this question is similar to asking a soccer fan how many players are on each team.
Imagine that soccer fan (who knows damn well the answer is 11), saying 13. That's what I did here. I gave an answer, not consciously, that was obviously wrong.
If I wracked my brain I could come up with other examples where I've done stupid **** that has prevented me from succeeding in something.
It's an unconscious thing, and I believe it stems from a complex fear of success.
If you follow through on the Elliot suggestion you might find something there as from what info I have found my problem isn't unique to me. Identifying and accepting the issue is the first step in dealing with it.
GL.