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Originally Posted by merlin44
I think no one is enjoying in losing sesions. When it happens, you must be proud of your game if you gave the best in spite of result.
When the technique, decisions overall go good, it is a great feeling, especially when moving up, and having got used to the variance, it is also great as it carries one in spite of the dangers, and one has got used to accept the worst case scenarios also, and have backup plans if they happen, and as so, one just plays, and especially when moving up, playing better than ever, is way greater, and even when having the losing sessions, the bigger ones included, one gets skill all the time, that's more important, and about the variance, little one can do, so one can't worry about it too much, it being inevitable. I feel warmer inside, and good, when I see I played well, and even if I didn't at spots, I might have learned there and got something stronger in my learning, so it is more or less inevitable.
If the all-in EV is good, I am happy too, and small lose possibly, even when losing many stacks. A while ago, I lost 13 stacks possibly straight and though I got a bit dizzy, I was happy to be able to train, get hands in, play well (and I had won half of that lose before the drop), and I do better than at the last level and will be able to move up again soon, as I have improved significantly during the last couple of months. The variance is no match compared to these most important factors.
This is all achievable, and it hasn't been the case most of the way, but has been so the last year pretty much for me as I have finally become good enough both technically and practically, so I am happy of the progress, watching variance and hoping I don't go bust because of it, while I am pushing up level after level and wondering when I get shot down (so far so good while dropping and facing the inevitable bust or/and too tough competition for the rake), wondering if I am not good enough at the next level and need to start working for more technique and exploitative factors than I already know - that has lifted me up nicely during the last year.
The variance, initially feels bad, but when one looks into the session even during it already and finds out the all-in EV is more reasonable, and one has played well or/and learned (that's of high value), and maybe one just hasn't got the cards, the variance factor becomes secondary, but one needs to be pretty good already, I suppose, though it could in theory carry at all levels.
The variance is just a joke, really, as there is nothing much one can do about it, and it doesn't rate to be the one deciding the result in the long run, and in the short run, yes, one can and will bust more or less, that's bad of course, but there isn't too much one can do about it. As I am still in the game, happy to my progress and hasn't been shot down yet, the variance isn't problematic at all, it's just going up and down and has been signifying nothing at the end, so far.