I have a lot of negative thoughts coming to my mind while I am playing poker, I cant focus on the game lol, I start to autopilote

Its so sick right i am in the hand, UTG raises , I call from the BTN so I put him on the range of hands
then flop comes lets say 3TJ he bets half pot and then I start thinking which hands he would bet and which hands I can discount right there

turn is 5 he checks. and I stop thinking about poker and start thinking about some stuff that is happening with humanity in my poor little country and how much there is corruption and how much peoples are
agressive and unfair and how much everything it looks to me its ****ed up totaly lol and I cant continue playing the hand properly since I am not in the game anymore, I am in the game on computer but in my head
I am somewhere else lol.

All this kind of thoughts are giving me headaches, it really hurts me and I cant , I just dont know what to do with myself, its unbearable.
Whenever I start having negative thinking on someone I start to feel bad myself, since I cant do anything myself in that moment but its just in my head and its pointless to have all this, but I just CANT get IT OUT, how do I deal with this, what the hell can I do, its ****ing up my life totally. Why do I still carry some things over what happened in the past, I was living in a poor country where everything is ****ed up and peoples are bullying a lot, and now atm I am living in some better country I am not physically even there but I still feel connected to this all, like really, WJHY?

I had to share this somewhere lol, there is a lot of more but u gotta start writing down something, if anyone is going to read what I write it might be okay to share...


SO, the problem here its not my game man, I like how I starte4d thinking deeper about the game, I started playing reasonably, I started to play games where I know I have edghe, I am making moneys, its just this negative thoughts that are giving me headache for no reason... GET OUTTTTTTTTT

sounds like you've been through a lot. i think the best things a person can do to improve their mindstate are: exercise, eat good food, find a girlfriend, spend time w family, spend time in the sun, pray etc. maybe your already doing these things. meditation can help, its not BS

i would also say be careful getting advice from people who havent been through the same thing (not saying that i know what your going throug(

I want to write you a decent response but I don't have the time right now unfortunately

However I can provide you with this:

The solution lies within yourself.

Start to practice mindfulness meditation.

Thanks for listening and replies +EVillain and Chiggs, I am happy that someone saw what I wrote and reacted in some way. I felt much better when I wrote down my feelings and feeling even much better that I know somebody read them.
I feel better since then.

Expressing your emotions is very healthy man.

It sounds like you've got a lot of emotional issues built up from your background and experiences.

If I can give one more piece of advice it would be to read the book, Monkeytraps by Steve Hauptman. It's super super valuable!

I don't usually think of all of that in the middle of the hand, but I get that a lot.

I hope you're doing good. I definitely need to do more meditation and yoga. It really does help.


I sometimes try and read way too many things such as now being up all night with like 40 tabs open and wanting to finish them and each time I read something I jump into another thing and it can kind of never stop, but my body needs rest, relaxation, quiet time and for me that's hard to put myself in that feeling of totally feeling amazing and having no worries/anxietys.

Anyways, meditation, yoga and connecting with people on a spiritual level. Having some sort of faith seems to help too.

I'm no professional and have lots of problems lol, but I guess I'm kind of venting too