Alright, so yeah.
I've been told that I've become a bit of a 'character' (other people's words, not mine) on the forums who invariably draws attention away from the subject of other people's threads and onto himself as an individual. This, honestly, isn't something I want to do. It screws things over for completely innocent posters who's stories and quests for self-improvement are just as valid as mine. Its selfish and wrong of me to tread on their turf.
Nevertheless, the biggest issue that I always thought I should be guarded against on the forums would be coming across as arrogant, narcissistic or self-obsessed and as such, the idea of starting a blog or thread of my own just felt like it would feed into that misconception (or at least, what I'd argue is a misconception). Hence why I've been putting it off. However, amid an equal mixture of people enthusiastically asking me to continue my story and others telling me to GTFO of the other threads, here we go.
For those of you that don't know me, I began the now fairly infamous 'Sexodus' thread bemoaning modern feminism, overestimated the available choice in mates for pretty much the entirety of womankind, as well as the fact that I sincerely thought that it wouldn't really be possible for me to chase women until I had a place of my own, an above-average salary and a flawless physique.
If you look back over the thread, you honestly will find that I never once expressed a shred of blame or resentment towards women as a whole, but of course, it was a pretty contentious topic to start off with and has pretty much set the tone for the kind of identity I've generated.
Anyway, in the end the thread gradually drifted away from the general political discussion about pay gaps and societal expectations of gender roles and suchlike and onto my romantic life, which despite having had plenty of opportunities for at least an average amount of sexual success (including being naked with several willing women on several occasions), was held back largely due to my persistent sexual failures and (most likely psychological) erectile dysfunction.
Anyway, with much to-ing and fro-ing I ended up deciding to get onto Tinder and see how well I could do, if nothing else just to conduct a fair experiment, enough to prove everyone wrong about how anyone but a wealthy Adonis could get a decent girlfriend these days.
Happily enough, in less than three months since being here, I've now moved on from that, got the beginnings of a solid relationship and satisfying sex life with a girl I really like, and more-or-less, achieved my goals in that area. (Although no-one did quite come back with any real evidence of the pay gap...
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Anway, all smug and annoying jokes aside, blogging helped me self-improve a hell of a lot; and there's absolutely no way any of that would have happened without the school of hard knocks that the swathe of TwoPlusTwo posters berating me provided me with. Happily enough I have been blessed with a very thick skin when it comes to criticism, however personal, online, and there's absolutely nothing anyone can say to me that's worse than what I've said to myself. (I'm even grateful for the people trying in vain to bully and victimise me, as they provided fascinating case studies of how otherwise quite reasonable people might well react to what I say, and in essence, great life lessons).
Nevertheless, the sexual issues were most certainly only the tip of the iceberg.
Evidence suggests that I'm a relatively intelligent guy. I went to a selective school, got into a Russell-group university despite my poor grades on the back of a diamond of an interview, and have generally been told that I'm articulate and well-written.
Whilst I realise that there's no way of that not coming off as a brag, I only really mean to quickly mention it as context for my situation now: living-with-parents, earning only £17k in a very low-level office job, very little direction in life and just generally, underachieving.
Much as they might say so, its pretty obvious to anyone observing that those telling me that my current lot in life is the ceiling of my abilities are just insulting me out of their own personal dislike for me.
So. If taking a bollocking (as we say in England) proved to help me turn things around in my lifes sexual arena, perhaps I could take it one step further and see if I could repeat the trick with my life, and particularly my career in general?
Who knows?
Lets get cracking and find out.
Last edited by Rastamouse; 03-02-2015 at 07:01 PM.